Sweet Amoris - Kentin x Reader

Chapter 1

During the time at Sweet Amoris I got closer to Ken. Right befor he left the school I realised that I even have fallen for him.

Today, after the incident with Nathaniel and his father smiting him, I went through school and saw Amber all over a guy. He wore military trousers, combat boots and a simple white shirt. He looked astonishing good with his smooth brown hair. He reminded me somehow of a mixture of Ken and hisfather.

Then it hit me, it is Ken. No Ken was the little boy that has fallen for me and I just got feelings for on the day he left us. This is Kentin, I think, or didn't he change. Is he still the old Ken, just looking hotter and got taller?

After Amber and Kentin parted and went in separate directions, I ran after him.

"Ken! Ken!", I shouted after him but he didn't hear me or didn't want to hear me.

I lost all the air in my lungs and breathing just burned but when I caught up to him, I grabbed his arm. He turned around and looked at me with his grim face.

"What do you want from me?", he asked.

"Ken, I know that it's you"

"How should you know; I can also just remind you of this 'Ken'"

Ouch

"Ken, no, Kentin, I know that it ́s you, I should ... I should recog... I should recognize the guy I've fallen for on the day he left us", I said with a sad smile.

I just lowered my head and closed my eyes. I just can't look at him.I can't. Every glance I get from him could expose what fool I am making of myself right now.

Maybe he doesn ́t love me anymore? He always did and I just laughed about him. I feel so dumb thatI didn ́t return his feelings. Why couldn't I regognises my real feelings sooner? Why couldn't I have more strength to confess to him?

He is too silent. Why doesn't he say something . Oh god what am I even doing here. Why did I approach him so sudden? I just want to van...

"(Y/N)", he started.

I opened my eyes and looked form his boots up his military trouser to is white shirt, right in to his wide eyes which are framed by his brown hair. He seems shocked. "... Is this true?", he asked

"Yes, it is, after the day you left, I never thought about someone else or something else besides how I could express my feelings for you."

Before I know what happened he hugged me. I was so relieved, that he didn't hate me. But do he still love me?

"I ́m sorry, (Y/N), but right now I can ́t be with you in that way".My heart felt like it would just crumble in to ash.

"But ... do you feel the same?!, I asked nearly crying

"My feelings never changed", he answered with a sad smile, "But first I have to do something"

He still feels the same. I am so glad. But does he mean with he can't right now and why ... I just have to ask:

"Why did you kiss Amber, if you still have feelings for me?"