family matters

chapter 3

abbys POV

i cant believe i let everyone see me have a panic attack yesterday. i hated how i reacted to what kip said, i needed to talk to him and apologize. but i dont want to go to TM, or see any one for that matter. i didnt even want to let jax in when brought me home yesterday, he basically walked in and decided he was going to stay.

its good he was here though i would have probably destroyed everything in my house if he wasnt. jax is now one of the few people to witness me come back from an attack, just the people in my unit have seen it. he helped me keep my mind from going, i didnt repeat what happened a thousand times as i paced myself a rut in the floor, he got me to talk about what was going through my head. we ended up drinking the rest of my scotch and watching a couple comedies. to say we were closer was an understatement. jax now knew most of my triggers, and what "signs" to watch for when i was starting to get anxious or slip into a flashback.

if everyone didnt already think we were hooking up before im sure they do now. its pretty clear that he stayed here last night. but i really didnt care, i had no one to answer to.

i got dressed after taking a long shower i decided to face everyone and apologize. i was going to TM to talk to kip first so i texted him to make sure he was there, he said he would be for a few hours atleast.

i grabbed my wallet, knife and a drink. i walked out my front door and slammed into what might as well been a wall.

"the fuck" i mumbled as i looked up. i was shocked to see opie standing there about to knock.

"sorry about that, i was about to knock. i just wanted to make sure you were okay or see if you needed anything." he said sounding nervous and rubbing the back of his neck

opie is at my door. he came to check on me? how sweet of him. stop it abs its not like that you know that.

"oh thank you but really im fine. i was actually about to come talk to kip and apologize to everyone for everything that happened."

"you dont need to apologize for anything. were here for you abby. i know we dont know each other that well and i kind of get the feeling you really dont care if we do or not but id like to be friends."

he thinks i dont like him! thats the opposite of how i feel. i wonder everyone else thinks i dont like opie? i guess how i act when hes around, how i talk to him or the lack of talking to him would make him think that. which even though i hate it that is how it need to be. right? he wants to be friends, of course he doesnt feel the same you do. why would he i mean have you looked in the mirror? duh abby. shit i needed to pull myself out of my own head and answer this man. hes just looking at me, probably thinks im crazy.

"oh uh yeah that would be okay. dont think i dont like you or anything opie, why the fuck would you say that dumbass!!, i just didnt want to cause any problems. i know how women can be in your world, pretty territorial, no offense. i just didnt want people getting the wrong ideas or anything. but yeah id like if we were friends. thank you for coming all the way over here to check on me. im fine, or atleast i will be."

"you would rather people get ideas about you and jax." he dead panned i was taken back by his words and the harshness behind them

"wow. thats harsh even for you. he doesnt come with potential drama. we are friends."

"friends." he chuckled

"yeah jax and i are friends. we joke around and have a good time together. it isnt my fault if you or anyone else doesnt understand that. great start of a friendship here. see you later opie." i scoffed as i walked around him to my truck