All Roads Lead to Your Eyes

#3

credit goes to the lovely @creamcupcake for translating :) thank you sweetie, you're the best ;)

chapter playlist: je me sens belle - cali

( ♫ ) Parce que tu m'as donné vingt ans 
De plus à vivre cette nuit 
J'ai dans le ventre un diamant 
Je me sens belle aujourd'hui 
Même s'il y a peu de chances
Que je te revois un jour 
Cette nuit fut une danse 
Et je t'aime pour toujours 

Parce que ma peau était si sèche 
De ne pas avoir été caressée 
Pendant ces mille années de dèche 
Où je fus si mal aimée 
Parce qu'une seule nuit m'a redonné le goût 
D'un souffle posé sur mes yeux 
D'un homme, plus que tout 

(Because you gave me twenty years
In addition to live this night
I have a diamond in the belly
I feel beautiful today
Although there is unlikely
I'll see you one day
That night was a dance
And I love you forever

Because my skin was so dry
Not being caressed
During these thousand years of ins and outs
I was so unloved
Because one night gave me a taste
With one breath landed on me
Of a man, more than any)

I cut the music off. Roughly. I didn’t want to hear one more word.

“Hey! Leave it, it was Cali!”

I turned around to face Charlie, a tense smile on my lips. She watched my face for a moment but didn’t say one more word. I thought she had understood. I thought. It was always a little complicated to know with Charlie, she thought like nobody did.

I watched the lifeless stereo. This song talked about me. About him. About our night. And that terrified me.

Why did my heart refuse to forget him?  That night was a dance. Yes, and even more, a vortex. A hurricane. A storm of desire. Sighs at the end of the lips, heart ready to explode, I felt myself burn with him. Dark impulse, soft agony that had slowly faded in my memories. He had told me. He’d told me laughing to forget him. And I, fascinated by his laugh, here’s where I’m at again. Crazy in love with a lightning, a shooting star who had entered my life to leave right away.

( ♫ )

 

I still remembered perfectly my wake. I’d glanced at the morning light coming from the window and fell back on our intertwined bodies. I’d had the impression that the sun had changed. It had seemed softer. Everything had seemed softer. From the tinctures of the room to the noise of the raising wind. And I perceived that something had changed in me. I then watched him. I’d lifted myself on my elbow and I’d watched him sleep. So beautiful, so restful. I’d taken out my hand from under the sheets and caressed his hair. I had went down to his face, had traced my finger over the shape of his brows, his cheeks, his nose, his mouth. I had memorised everything, it was all incised in my head.

I had again caressed his face. With gentleness. And then suddenly a hand had stopped me. His of course. He’d looked at me whilst frowning his brows, I’d responded to him with a smile and then I had closed my eyes. He had kissed me once again. For a long time. Languidly. With style and appliance. To tell me hello or goodbye. Everything depends on the point of view.

I mildly came back to reality. Charlie was watching me without saying anything. Now I was sure, she knew I was thinking of him. But she didn’t say anything, simply because there wasn’t anything to be said. Him and I, we didn’t write anything together. Besides, I couldn’t even say “we”.

I imagined him laugh at me then black out in the mist. Disappear once again.

Thank you for reading! Okay, so the story is kinda weird so far (oops). But soon, there'll be more, uh, action like between the main characters. yeah. and idk, but like could anyone comment over here? i'd be real' grateful for that man