All Roads Lead to Your Eyes

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( ♫ ): start playlist song.                                                                                                                         chapter playlist: one - u2

The first days it was hard. He’d disturbed my thoughts. Eclipsed everything that wasn’t related to him. Eaten my words. Trampled on my brain. He’d messed me up. It amused him. Or instead, I saw his pleased child smile. He was being scattered everywhere.

In my thoughts. In my heart. In my every move. He was ensconcing himself comfortably in my head and didn’t want to get out. He was playing with my feelings. Stretching them, lengthening them, cutting them. My brain was being drained day by day to leave him more room. I couldn’t keep myself from seeing him everywhere.  At the gate, leaning against a wall, in the row at the cafeteria, at a table, in the middle of the schoolyard, in the halls. Tous les chemins mènent à tes yeux (All roads lead to your eyes), as a song by Saez said. He was everywhere. From the tip of my toes to the top of my head, passing by my knees and my sighs.

That was it. He was guzzling me. He was nibbling me little by little, eating me up from the inside. He didn’t want to get out. And then I made myself a reason. A guy like him, it doesn’t need anyone. Above all, it doesn’t know how to love.

( ♫ ) And then there was her anyways, I wasn’t alone.

It was strange this link that united us. I didn’t feel like running away, giving it all up, just because she was there. Because in all and for all, I was completely addicted to her. Well might she be crazy, I couldn’t leave her. She was everything. My everything. That naïve little girl who refused to grow up anymore. She was making me live by her laughter. Our laughter. Her smile never left her. In her eyes, I was finally someone, I really existed. I was no longer that phantom who searched for an aim to his life. She was by my side —always— and only that counted. The world could as well die, I didn’t give a fuck; and this egoism was beautiful because it was ours. The one that covered all this friendship. I still remembered our encounter; she had come towards me and with her smile with a bright ambiguity she’d declared: “Nobody has the right to stay alone their whole life. You aren’t condemned to live in solitude, all it takes is just to take the occasion when it’s there and be happy with what we have.” She had green converses at her feet and U2 in her ears. One. One, that’s what we became. I existed because she existed. 

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