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Request: Austin Choi

Hehe look at my ass writing again uwu)// I'll try to get back into it!
Requested by: jannine00742
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  Look at him. Just, look.

  His smile, his hair.

  You never really did know him, well, you do know him actually. Laidback, smiley, chill, friendly, or at least that's who he was with his friends. Always felt like there was something more to him, but you never knew what, nor did you know if you ever would. Chin in hand, a little smile forming as you wonder if you'll see him today.

  So used to building your first conversations in your head, how you would bump into each other, how would you start talking? Would it be a sudden hi one day? A hi back, and from there, your favourite music, favourite movies? Or maybe it would be an unusual joint venture with his class, improbable, but not impossible. Who knows? Maybe the school would suddenly have a change of plans? Maybe you'd get paired with him?

  Your thoughts escalate to a bunch of improbable scenarios, happening in maybe one of the few hundred alternate universes, where every different act and decision of others influence your future as much as theirs.

  Oh well.

  Time to move.
 
  Rather improbable, the scenarios that came upon your mind, you knew to be. Up from your seat and to where you would usually go.

  Okay. Wait. That ain't it.

  What were the chances? Ah right, you were used to his routes, his routines, habits, it was close to ridiculous but you were so familiar to all of him, his routes have become yours. Couldn't really help it, your eyes follow him everywhere and well, you want to see him, quite a bit.

  You'd heard his voice and your eyes follow. Obviously, he was there, and you could feel the smile creep up.

  He's here.

  You think you lock eyes and you think his gaze lingered. You feel your heart flutter.

  Oh my goodness.

  You quickly look away, pretending as if you didn't see him, deep breaths, deep breaths.

  Keep calm!

  You hear his group move toward your direction and you just ignored. You tried to ignore. Just let them walk past you, as they always have. It's fine. It's fine!!!!

  Oh it is so not fine.

  You hear his friend call his name and quickly gathered that they weren't with the group yet. Your mind was racing with improbable probabilities. Why aren't your friends here right now? They would be making things so much easier.

  Near the wall, you tried to focus on something else, one being how much of a weirdo you looked at the moment, just standing near a wall, trying to look beyond them and elsewhere, as if looking for nonexistent friends. Big yikes-- praying it looks convincing enough.

  "Oh shi-!"

  Hand next to you, against the wall, a presence quite strong, a presence so familiar. You pray that it's him. You pray so hard.

  Looking at him, his face, closer to yours than it'll ever be in YEARS.

  His brown hair, his brown eyes, his expression, the second that felt like 10, the ray of light that came out of nowhere, everything was so damn visually clear.

  Then it was not.

  "Shit, I'm so sorry!" He pulls away, his face immediately further.

  Aw... "Uh- it's cool?"

  His cheeks slightly red, he returns to his friends. You watch him, feeling the heat rise to your cheeks, neck, your ears. You're just warm.

  He's so cute holy crap.

  Stopping the squeal that was building up, you pretend to not watch him shove his friend lightly, to not watch them laugh as he nudges them with his elbow, embarrassed. And your mind is back to building.

  Was he embarrassed because he liked you? Or was it because it was just awkward? Or...

  Your legs finally work, your heart was still pounding in your chest and in your ears, you stumble towards whatever direction you could go. You needed a seat.

  "My gods," you mumbled to no one in particular. "Ho my gosh..." Your voice trails off and you squat. Face in your hands, you stay squatted. "Ho my gosh," you squeaked. Stomach fluttering, grin not fading, hehehehehe.

  If this was one of the many alternate universes where miracles happened, doesn't matter. You are SO thanking his friend for that.

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SORRY IT'S SHIT HUUU i haven't written in years, this was lowkey a challenge and so different. I hope you enjoyed???