Pretending
Yes, that's what i'm good at
Pretending to look calm when she hugged me when we going to sleep
Pretending to fall asleep in the morning when she woke up because i don't want to get caught for staring at her in the morning
Should i keep pretending when she kissed me in the corner of my lips in the morning ?
Should i ?
I decided to open my eyes slowly
The first thing i saw was her face in front of me
Smiling sweetly at me
I can feel her breath hitting my lips
She tucked my hair behind my ears and then holding my cheek ,using her thumb to slowly rub my cheek .
I closed my eyes
Wondering
How long do i fantasize ,make myself believe that she feels the same
Should i kiss her to know to answer?
Should i risk it all?
But i'm not ready yet, i'm scared that all of my assumptions are wrong
I'm not ready to lose her even as a friend
Well i decide to enjoyed this moment without thinking too much ,sometimes i just want to scream to myself to shut the hell up
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Later that day on sunday she literally dragged me to church with her family
Having lunch with her and family , i found out she have such a lovely family
How her parents treat her like a little princess
I know how talkative she is
but once she is eating she doesn't utter any word
How cute is she ?
I love watching her eat
I love how her cheeks would transform into chipmunks when she eat
I love how she would feed me asking me is it good or not
I can list a thousand things i love about her but one thing i love for sure is her pure heart
She is such a softie even the way she talks
Anyone who makes her angry is the biggest asshole on universe because i never ever saw her angry or raising her voice
How can a person like that exist ?
The electric feeling in between my ribs everytime i'm around you
Her eyes that made me feel i am loved
I'm wishing that these moment will never end
I'm wishing that this weekend would never end
That's all i can do ,wishing for something i know it's just temporary
