hey ghost
It's been 5 days. Tim and I have barely talked to each other at school and I've come to the conclusion that Mark is a fucking asshole.
This isn't meant to be about Mark but since I've mentioned him in the beginning, I'm just giving you an update.
He's gay but he's been raised to hate any and all forms of homosexuality. I'm guessing he's going through a tough time but that doesn't make him any less of a shithead.
He talks shit about his friends and he hides behind sick jokes. He's rude as fuck to Tim and just to get on his nerve, he's playing with his cousin. Mark keeps threatening to text Tim's cousin (who has a boyfriend btw) asking her out. I think Tim's tired of his bullshit.
As if that wasn't enough, Mark makes fun of me all the time with his little jokes. Today he told me he was gonna teach me all about the right angles and about how I had to spread my legs. Who does that?
Anyway, Tim and I have barely talked to each other at school. I didn't ask him to have lunch with me because we ended up not meeting up for that project. I think we're gonna do it next week.
I was starting to think he had lost all interest in me. Then he messaged me though, but I didn't reply. I don't really have a reason for not replying. I just didn't. I'm so dumb I don't know why I do this type of stuff :(. I was so anxious about it that I had a full on not-being-able-to-breathe panic attack. I think it's worth mentioning that I'm on my period, even though I'm not sure it's related to this.
Today we danced in gym class so we had to pair up. I paired up with Tim but for some reason the teacher didn't like it and he told me to change partners lmao. I went through a couple more dance partners until I paired up with Tim again and this time the teacher didn't say anything.
However, our time was up so fast that the only thing I managed to say was that I was sorry for not replying yesterday. We didn't really talk for the rest of the day until he sent me a message. This time I replied :).
He asked me if I was going to do anything tomorrow after school. I told him I was free and asked if he wanted to have some lunch. He said yes! We still don't know where we're going but we're gonna have lunch tomorrow!!!
until next time,
mars
