Euphoria

Chapter Three

I woke up at 6 that Monday morning. The thought of attending a new school was both thrilling and terrifying. I got up and walked over to where my uniform hung. My anxiety building up as I studied the navy blue colour and red outline of my blazer. I don't think I was ready for a new start. Maybe I could pretend to be sick and go tomorrow. No.. no backing out of this.

I went into my bathroom and started up my shower. Got in and quickly finished up. After I was done, I got dressed in my uniform which definitely felt weird. My old school didn't have you wear uniforms, but rather casual attire. I looked at myself in the mirror as I fixed my hair and noticed how exhausted I looked like. I really wished my mind would be silent when trying to sleep.Having anxiety really destroys your self confidence. It's a miracle I've made it so far in life. Everyone who has to go through that has to be incredibly strong.

Everyone was still asleep which meant I had to be quiet. I quickly tidied up my room and moved to the kitchen. I tried my best to make me some coffee without making a noise but failed. As soon as I started I heard footsteps from behind me. I turned around and saw Kaiden heading to the fridge to grab some orange juice. He too was already dressed for school which only started at 8. He looked at me and sent me a nod. I could tell he was not a morning person, yet he woke up early? Maybe I woke him up when I took a shower. I started to feel a little guilty.

"Did I wake you up?" I asked timidly while studying his expression.

"Nah, just couldn't sleep so I got done." He sat on the counter and grabbed an apple. I continued with my coffee and cleaned up after myself. I must say my cousin looked great, which made me feel like crap in comparison.

I sat at the kitchen counter with Kaiden in silence. It was peaceful for a moment, but the thoughts kept itching their way back into my mind. I kept thinking about how this new school would be, how I would fit in. Would I even make friends? What if my cousins ditched me?

Time seemed to pass me by because next thing I knew we had to leave for school. I thought my aunt would drop us but was surprised when Kaiden called me over to his car. I couldn't help but admire it. It was an Audi rs7 which was slated for next years release. I had no idea how he got it so soon. It was a sliver sportback with nice tinted windows.

He told me to get in. I did as I was told and noticed Aiden and Alyssa already in the car. They could tell I was nervous. I sat next to Alyssa in the back and watched Kaiden get in and start the ignition.They were surprisingly quiet this particular morning, given their normal chatter box characteristics. Aiden connected his phone to the car and started playing some music I didn't even pay attention to. I had other things on my mind and didn't know how to make them go away.

I looked how the trees on the sidewalk disappeared as we sped past them. The sun hiding behind a sky full of thick clouds. Leaves changing colour and puddles on every road. Autumn was setting in and I loved it. We soon slowed down and entered a parking lot filled with students either standing at their cars with friends, or running into the huge building.

I could feel my heart thumping in my throat as I got nervous. The car suddenly stopped which made me panic more. Alyssa looked at me and smiled.

"You ready?" She asked getting ready to leave. I couldn't find myself to say anything, so I just shook my head. "It's ok to be nervous. C'mon we'll walk to the registration office with you ok?" I reluctantly agreed and got out of the car.

As soon as I stepped out I got a whiff of the fresh Autumn smell which relaxed me a little bit. As I followed Alyssa I nearly stepped into a puddle which got me some stares from other kids. Alyssa just giggled and told me not to worry.