How it all will End

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because I’m the one who destroyed it.
I did it, I can’t do anything right and I will never learn to, I’m just an imperfect person
Why am I still here?

I’m not sure but today is different,
Today I just had that feeling and Maybe
I just knew today was the end.
I see no reason, None!
My friends will find someone Prettier, smarter and Nicer.
My family will have one less problem
and those bullies well…. They will move on
I’ll let them win! Because they will Lie, cheat and Torment till they win so
They Win!

i walked into my father’s room I stood and stared knowing that my last memory of him.
I stumbled with happiness in my heart but pain running down my face
I grabbed dads old guns, grabbing my favourite black one I always us to use when we went out shouting.
Raising it to my head with tears drowning my face Slowly closing my eyes and counting down.
But at a moment’s notice opening them while lowering the gun.

“They did this to me” or “did I do this to myself” I argued between myself.
I knew this was my fault, I did this,
If I changed and wasn’t the annoying and …. The person I am now I wouldn’t get all my hate I might just be happy and normal and not the pathetic emotional wreck I am now!