Utaite x Reader *INTENSIFIES* [DISCONTINUED]

Senra x Reader [Truth]

[stress writing #4!]

"Just tell me the truth" Your (e/c) orbs looked at his yellow ones "Senra-san"

His eyes were absolutely telling you that he is serious "About what?"

"You don't love me, right?" You bit on your bottom lip "But instead you love Shima-san instead"

He flinched and smiled "No, I'm not, what makes you say that?"

"Stop saying bullshit like I don't know anything" He was quite surprised at your reply

"I've always have this thought that you and Shima-san look good together" You inhaled a heavy amount of oxygen but your tears crawled down your cheek "I'm jealous that Shima-san knows more about you than me"

He stayed silent as he listened to the rain and to you

"I know it's normal for Shima-san knows more than me because you two belong to the same unit" You cannot express your anger anymore and looked at him with tears continuously flowing down your cheek

"But you don't need to make it obvious! you don't need to chat in front of me on purpose! you don't need to show more love to him than you do to me!" You exclaimed and you fell down on your legs

"...." Senra was lost for words, he doesn't know how to reply, he keeps his mouth open

"You don't need to force yourself to me, I can always cheer you on" You sobbed, not even sparing a single glance at him "Because there are things you need to sacrifice to the person you love even if it kills you inside"

Senra cannot say anything there was a lot in his head but there was nothing coming out from his mouth

'Where did I go wrong?'

'I promised Maashi to make her happy'

He stared at your devastated figure, sitting down on the floor, crying all the sadness you are feeling right now

Sunday

10:30 AM

Senra didn't even talk to you nor have a normal conversation

Even comforting you

'Maybe I was too much?'

"(Y/N)-san?" You snapped out of your thoughts and looked to the person who called you

"Sou-kun, what's wrong?" He handed you his handkerchief

"You're crying, (Y/N)-san"

Your eyes went wide as you realized the wetness of your eyes and cheeks

Time skip

You stayed in your apartment even though Mafumafu invited you to his new video as a guest

"....." Your eyes has thick black in it, indicating that you haven't took a short sleep since the talk

Your phone ring and saw Mafumafu's number in it

You stared at it for a minute and decided to ignore it

Then your eyes gave up and you fell asleep

After some minutes, you open up your eyes seeing an unfamiliar ceiling

'Huh...?'

You looked at your right and saw your friends listening to the doctor

They all had tears in their eyes and Senra saw you already awake

You reached out your hand to him

"Senra-san..."

Was your last words before hearing a loud sound emitting the whole room

It seems like their whole world stopped after seeing the straight line beside your bed

"No..." Senra whispered and he broke down into tears

"(Y/N)-CHAAAAN"

××××××××

After finally putting you into your rest place, Senra remembered the words you said

"You don't need to make it obvious!"

It was for you to understand something about him

"You don't need to chat in front me on purpose!"

It was for you to know more about him

"You don't need to show more love to Shima-san than me!"

It was for you to know how much love he can give you

"You don't love me, right?"

That word absolutely broke his heart into pieces

"No, I love you so much, (Y/N)-chan"

"Please"

"Don't leave..."