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Epilogue

Kim Seokjin's secret note
Final page, year 20XX

After that talk that we have, I haven't seen him since then. He gave me the place on where you at and I held on to it for months.

Five months. That's how long it took me to have a courage to go and see you, After all the years that you have waited for me to come back I felt so scared to instantly run to you as fast as I could. I deeply apologize if I come to you this late, I was beyond heart broken by the letter you gave me and to the word that pinned into my chest.

Pancreatic Cancer. 4th stage

Is that why you haven't called me after the second month that I was away from you?.

And On the 5th month that I was almost done at my senior homeschooled year away from you,

dying.

Is that the reason why you left me on read?.

Dead,

Is that why  you haven't contacted me since then?.

You died after fighting bravely your battles. You died waiting for my return.

You're gone.

You made me feel how it is to be loved and to be accepted and to be cared for, but you also made me feel how it is to have a shattered heart, living. Are you taking revenge on me for leaving you suddenly?, because you did it successfully.

I'm sorry.  I deeply apologize for how many days and nights that you cried, yearning for me, missing me, wanting to see me again. I'm sorry for the times that you need me the most and I wasn't there to give you the comfort that you need.

I'm sorry for the times that you are suffering from that illness while waiting for me. I didn't know that in my good times in college comes a bad times for you. If only I could just turn  back time, I will stay with you and hold you more closer in my arms, I will flood you with kisses and hugs, I will be there by your side and I would've seen you grow from a very adorable girl to a beautiful woman that I haven't got to see.

If only I was there to fight with you, you could've at least grew more to become a lady. You could've been the most gorgeous Lady I ever laid my eyes on.

But I also want to thank you. Thank you for not scooting me away from you when I said my apologies to you on that gym,

Thank you for the chance that you have given me to start a friendship with you. You were always there for me when I needed you the most and I'm deeply in regrets that I wasn't there when you needed me.

But, I'm always thankful on how you have changed my life, how you have melted my heart by your pleasant personality, Your childish attitude and your beautiful self.

Trust me, I have waited for you, and I'll still be waiting for you. - your Amber.

The words that you wrote as you ended your letter for me. And I believed that you have waited for me, and you have waited long enough.

I believe that you will be waiting for me, I may come to you much later but I know you'll still be somewhere waiting for me to go with you to the path where we will be more happier forever.

All in this notebook states on how you are important to me and the reason how I kept and still keeping you in my heart.

It's been 6 years now since I've visited you from your grave. And still, I can see you vividly in my mind; Giving me that smile that my eyes wants to see and sometimes I can hear your laugh, That laugh that my ears must've kept because it is the only laugh that my ears wants to hear, that I always yearn to hear.

Even though it's been so many years since you have moved away from my sight, my heart still beats for you and it will always be.

Now, I just finished my early military Service and the first thing I did was to write this last letter for you. Sitting here in the coffee shop that you and I kept on going back to satisfy our cravings before, I keep buying a creamy latte because you're right, it tasted better than a bitter black Americano coffee that you hated.

As I'm about to finish my last letter for you, may be I also want to let this one included. I love you my Amber, I always have and always will.

It was you back then and it's still be you till then. And this, You must know; Even when the life is through, The finest thing I ever did was loving you.

It's you whom I've dreamed of, and how stupid of me that I didn't pursue you.
- Written by someone who is still in regrets.

Your favorite Alpaca,
Seokjin.