Enjoy 🌱
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It burning warmth of embrace still lingered in my arms. His body pressed against mine. His kiss forever tainted on my lips no matter how many times I try to scrub it away. His gental hands combing threw my hair in a graceful motion; untangling any knots that stopped him. His warm hands prints marked on my skin, impossible to remove.
His smile, his eyes his laugh his touch. It replays in my mind, forever on play until the end of time. Forgetting him was impossible. He wasn't like some soda stain that could easily be removed no, he was like red wine on a white dress shirt. He couldn't be removed no matter how much I try, he's still there. In my mind and out of reach.
My chest aches in pain, my heart felt like it was being stabbed and ripped out of me. My lungs struggled to take in air with each cry I let out. The dark crimson color stained the inside of my mouth aswell as the corner of my mouth. The tissu I held tight in my hand was also covered it the dark red color. Tears burned hot in my eyes, blinding me and slightly burning my cheeks.
I was drained of all color, weak and numb. His words-like a cave- echoed in my ears.
"I'm leaving you"
"I'm with some one else now..."
"im sorry..."
My chest tighted at the memory, more tears then before falling.
The fúcking bastard. I could see it in his eyes that it was true. He was leaving me but he wasn't fúcking sorry. He spoke lies without a problem. It only had me thinking..
Was he lying to me this whole time?
Did he really truely not love me?
The thought sickened me to the core. I hated it, i dispised it but it had to be true wether I wanted to believed it or not. I was left in the dark in my own thoughts that only worstened as the days dragged into weeks. Dark cricles appeared under my eyes from the lack of sleep and my body looked thin, losing some muscle from the lack of food in my system. I couldnt eat, i couldn't even if my stomach wanted me too, I just couldn't bring myself to eat or even sleep.
I couldn't lay well rested without him. He was the reason why i slepted soundly.
He was the reason why i woke up in the morning.
Without him, whats my reasoning now?
I hugged myself tight, I no longer had a reason.
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