Alastor x reader

Life Before Hell- pt.3

                    After the hours of torture, the taxi driver threw me out of the taxi... Stealing all of my money in the process. I was and felt hopeless for a moment: My wallet, my self respect, and my ride were all taken from me that night. But, as silly as this sounds, I tried my hardest to persevere and reach B/N at NYU. I was not just going to let some sleazy taxi driver ruin my life. I had a great new future awaiting me, and the next step was to fully achieve my goal. 

                  I was slightly amazed that my day had been this strange and awful. It was a little past 7:00 pm, and I was a complete mess. I had bruises from head to toe from the attack.. Not to mention, my outfit was completely torn apart. As I was slowly slipping into the submission of failure, I noticed the alley was spray-painted as a deer. After seeing the deer, I nearly lost my mind. The deer had been following me around my whole day! Before, I thought that the deer was completely in my imagination... But now, I realized this deer was ruining my life, and I tried to eliminate it from my presence. 

I lifted myself up from the ground, and I was so agitated I started talking to myself. I began to lose my mind.

"hahaha, you are a very funny deer.." I growled, "Because of you...  M-My new life is being ruined!" I shouted.

"Why do you keep following me around..?" I asked,  "What do you want from me?" 

                  The deer non-surprisingly gave me no reply. I was so agitated and annoyed, that I jumped at the deer attempting to punch it... But to my Surprise, the deer leaped out from the alley wall, and began to run from me. Once again, I was in a trance from the deer. But not a hypnotic trance, a trance that made me want to attack the deer. In my angry trance state, I felt nothing more than rage towards this deer,

"This deer has lead me into an endless pit of suffering." I thought, "I need to stop it once and for all!" I angrily began to tail behind the elegant red deer, seeking revenge on the creature... 

                 However as I chased the deer, I began to question what this deer's deeper meaning was. In the beginning, I was intrigued and curious, but now I felt an angry spark of passion against the deer. Even though I was extremely angry with this deer spirit, I could not help but question why. I began to think, that it was not the deer's fault for letting me fall into the hands of an abusive taxi driver. So then, if it was my poor judgement, why was I taking my anger out on the deer? Maybe the deer was at fault, but it made no logical sense, so I had to scrap it from my mind. 

                I continued to chase the deer, like Alice chasing her white rabbit. Except in my case, I was chasing a red furred deer. My curiosity and anger grew fonder and fonder as I chased the deer. As time passed, I seemingly became less and less tired, my heart growing stronger and stronger as I raced with the red furred deer. The city streets were overall dark, lit with the millions of lights from activity in the town. However, nothing lit brighter than the deer I was trying to chase. It was like the trance I had before, it almost seemed as though the world began to fade away, with only the red deer visible to me. Street lamps, restaurants, and other bright things began to fade. 

               However, a sudden feeling of warmth arose in me as I began to inch closer and closer to the deer. I began to see a light at the edge of my vision, which the deer and I were quickly approaching. I could not quite make it out, but as I approached it my heart throbbed faster and faster. A growing desire grew stronger and stronger in my chest. My heart and soul belonged to whatever was at the edge of this light. The deer and I got closer and closer when suddenly.... The light was reached, a restaurant named "male delectat" was in my view... but my heart stopped when I discovered it's deeper meaning....

It was B/N.

                 But, to my surprise, my heart sunk into the bottom of my soul; I automatically realized B/N was not there for me, he was there for a different girl. B/N was eating a fancy meal with a single beautiful woman who had a voluptuous body. Beautiful, petite, round, and blonde... A girl who had clearly been used as my replacement. How could I have been so naive.. To expect that B/N would remain faithful to me when I arrived. My heart nearly collapsed... Then I heard a slight conversation the two had.

"Oh CG/N (Cheater girl name), I need to be completely honest with you.." B/N paused and blushed, "I-I love you CG/N." 

CG/N blushed and replied, "I-I think I love you too B/N... My life has never felt more complete without you. You, are my one true love.."

CG/N and B/N immediately embraced and kissed. Followed by the entire restaurant cheering for their beautiful relationship.

"B/N has left me?" I contemplated to myself... "B-but, my happiness, my love.... my entire life's purpose.." I cried..

                 B/N slowly turned to look to the window of the restaurant, seeing me cry, and he came bolting through the restaurant to reach me. I did not want to talk to him, he had no idea what I had experienced during the entire day... I could not bare to see B/N's ridiculous face. I could not believe that my source of happiness, B/N, was taken from me. I had to choose to flee from the ridiculous scene, or hear what B/N had to say. The deer seemingly offered me its hoof, offering a chance for me to flee from this dreadful world. Blankly I starred into what seemed like an eternal abyss...

"So this is what my next chapter had in store for me..." I paused, "My happiness, completely stripped from my body," I began to cry, "What can I do to fix this?!?!?" I continued, "My life has been put TO SHAME."

                 Time froze in this moment. As B/N approached me, I turned more and more towards the beautiful and elegant deer for comfort.. I was being pulled into the deer by another force I had no control over. I refused to look back at B/N, and moved closer and closer to the deer's embrace. In an instance, I finally grasped onto the deer, finally understanding what force the deer had over my body. My life and its history instantly flashed before my eyes, coming to a final peace ...

                 I was beginning my true new life, a life in death. The deer's light suddenly transformed itself into a noose, to which, I knew what had to be done. I knew now, why I couldn't quite grasp the deer's embrace... It was a different life... A new life in which I had to start anew... A new life, with new possibilities.

A life in hell.