Our Omega, My Alphas

The Unexpected Heat Pt. 2

WARNING ⚠️ HOMOPHOBIC SLURS AT THE END OF THE CHAPTER!!!

This chapter is long and is Jungkook centric but a lot of things are going to make sense and finally start linking up.

Ps. If you read any italicized sentences in this chapter, they are from the Little Mermaid (the original story).

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Jungkook knew that he couldn't dwell on his actions of cowardness or emotions of self-pity forever. He still wasn't sure what to do with the feelings he had developed towards Taehyung. Although he found it very striking that he had developed feelings towards someone so fast, so quickly that it scared him. Was this what others called love at first sight? He wasn't sure, but he knew these feelings were dangerous, at least for him, if he wanted to keep up with the image of the perfect Alpha. He recognized that his indecisiveness wasn't fair for Byul or Taehyung, but he couldn't help it. Jungkook was a coward, a scary-cat that lived his life based on what society considered the "norm." It wasn't unheard of for the same sub-gender couples to display their affection of love in public. People were mostly accepting, except for narrow-minded people who didn't want to admit that there were different kinds of love in the world, and it was those types of people that Jungkook was afraid of the most. Especially after what happened with his parents, which he would never forgive himself even to this day. He still hadn't moved forward from the immense guilt he had in his heart by being the cause of his parents' death. If only he weren't so naive and selfish as a child, maybe, just maybe his parents would still be alive.

Jungkook wished his parents were alive to witness the mess he had created by his insecurities. Maybe they'd knock some sense into him and tell him to love whoever he wanted to. The relationship he had with Byul was the closest to a real and accepting connection with someone (whom he was actually attracted to) that he had ever had in his life. A romance where he didn't feel guilty for harboring such feelings. He wasn't interested in being together with Byul only because she was an Omega or because he was trying to use her to hide his true self, which he still wasn't sure about, to be honest. Jungkook was smitten by her beauty, her gorgeous personality and charming smile that made his heart skipped a beat. After his parents' death, he closed himself up and refused to open his heart to anyone aside from Jimin and his parents. Once he got to college, he met Byul while he was working out at the college's gym, and an instant connection was made. At first, he refused to give in into his Alpha instincts and admit that he was interested in Byul because, in his heart, he had accepted his fate that he was exactly like his parents: an Alpha that was only sexually attracted to other Alphas.

Nevertheless, once he got to know the Omega better, he started to harbored feelings for her and found her attractive, but a part of him, buried deep inside his mind kept creeping up on him, begging and screaming that being sexually attracted to Byul was not what his heart wanted. Yet, he wondered, what were the feelings he had for Byul then? Were they fake, or was it his brain playing tricks with his emotions into thinking he was attracted to her? Jungkook was confused by his sexuality. He had a feeling that he wasn't just gay but most likely bisexual, and THAT was his most hidden secret. Not even Jimin knew about this. What Jimin knew was just a scratch on the surface of what was happening inside Jungkook's mind and the agony he felt every single day.

He would repeatedly ask himself the same question, every day, and it haunted him even in his dreams. Was he attracted to Alphas like he was initially meant to be as an Omega before he unexpectedly presented as an Alpha? Or was he attracted to Omegas, the opposite sub-gender, because he was an Alpha? Was he attracted to Byul because that was how the Moon Goddess had programmed their primal instinct to be? Or was he attracted to Taehyung because his primal instincts were different from what the Moon Goddess designed it to be? He still wasn't sure of what the answers to his questions were, but he was afraid of finding out.