Silver Plate (Seongsang/Woosang)

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WARNING: This chapter includes mention of abuse and depression.

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Not long till I lose it,
Not long till the drugs make me stupid,
Not long till she figures out and moves
Sad song, sad story with a history of abuse
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People tried to tell Park Seonghwa that he wouldn't be worthy of his name. He will taint his future with all the wrong choices. He will always be the child that was never meant to do great things.

Growing up with his family is a burden. Too much expectations. Too much disappointments.

His family are politicians, people who got enough power to impose law on everybody's head. It was also because of their selfishness, that his life had been endangered many times that he start wonder how he's still alive.

He got so many life altering moments that had happen even before he stepped inside a school. He knew by then that people will always be eager to cut off a limb of someone dissatisfied them.

There's is just two of them in the family. He got a brother who's five years older than him, who was also his confidant. His brother is much stronger than him and always ready to learn about law and politics.

He was never a public speaker. He don't like to ramble things for the sake of image and responsibility. He wanted a wall between him and reality. Reality can easily enter his fine cracks like water but the turbulent echoes of judgmentals are easily drown out by his music.

He never wanted to create a mess that won't die with his age. He never wanted to please cause he wasn't born to kiss people feet. But asking people's understanding on something benign is like asking them to crawl when they can still walk. Human will always do what keeps them floating. Easily swayed, easily betrayed.

But despite his many tribulations, he tried to lead a normal life outside his home. He can be a little more human. He might be young but the lingering taste of drugs are making his tongue numb to the point where it is impossible for him to function without it. It reminds him of how young he is when reality stolen his innocence and youth.

He made it to the point where it's becoming less fulfilling to suddenly get lower dosage but more quantity. At seventeen he drink almost four tablets everyday excluding vitamins and nutrients on stuffs he can't eat.

Seonghwa became aware of the world outside his walls when it suddenly became suffocating. He wasn't ready to face them and even after a while, when he thought he knew the routine, a simple shake woke something within him and throw him back to where he started. It's an endless cycle.

But after everything, in this world full of catastrophes, a person came in like a tornado in the middle of an ocean, he feared his approach on his chaotic life. It was like seeing through thick glasses and yet he's crystal clear.

It was a drizzling morning when Seonghwa and his brother decided to take a detour from the nearest road coming from the supermarket. He insisted that he wanted to learn to drive but his brother was against it cause the road is quite wet for an amateur driver.

He never agrees to anything he wanted that involves him but he decided to pull a card that he wouldn't want to pass. A VIP ticket to Blackpink concert in London.

He tried to coach him on an empty road cause it easier to control when no one is around to cause accident. His brother is never a patient person, so he's just twenty minutes in to his tutorial and he's already complaining about him being slow.