Silent(Short Story)

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Rayan.

I found a seat in the back of my Ap Chemistry class. Soon after more people came and found their seats as well. I thought everyone came in but then I saw his afro. Damn I forgot he on every single one of my classes. I mentally said a quick prayer to hope that someone anyone besides him would sit next to me. I saw Jacob speed walk towards me but then Anthony beat him to it. Fuck. Anthony. Really. I'll get over it.

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Jacob.

If I could get away with murder Anthony would be the first person I'd go after. I couldn't even focus in that class because I was too focused on what Anthony did, but really I was concerned about Rayan. Why did he walk away from me? Am I a bad hugger? Is that even a thing? Was I sweaty from the game? What is going on that I do not know about?  All these questions over a hug. See what Rayan does to me. I can't deal so I'm going to give him more love. That's exactly what he needs. Someone to vent to. I have to make him say at least one word to me. He can't continue his life like this. I know almost everything about him so I have to show him how to love again.

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Rayan

After school I hurried to my locker grabbed my belonging and headed out the front doors until Jacon grabbed my hand. His hands feel really soft.  He was able to intertwine my hand in his so smoothly. My cheeks were probably burning a bright red. Crap.He probably can see my face right now. Get it together Ray.

If this is uncomfortable for you just shake your head  no okay Rayan. I don't want to rush anything with you. Your  too precious to me and I don't want to loose what we have .

Oh Lord. His choice of words are just purely amazing. No. Stop. He's a smooth talker. Don't let him get to you Ray. He's probably said this to another girl before so don't get your hopes up. Then again he might really mean it. Just maybe. I nod my head indicating that holding my hand is okay. He flashes me that perfecf smile of his and we continue to walk but I have no idea where.

You're probably wondering where we're going right?  Have no worries Rayan. Im not going to take you anywhere exoctic. Im going to take you to a place where you always use to go when you were little.

How does he know that my favorite place is the park. Is this a sign? I'm not sure but excitement grew over me when we heading towards the swings. I practically sprinted over to them. Reminiscing on all the times I've been here. I chuckled when Jacob tried to jump off the swings but failed trying landing.

Rayan did you just laugh. Oh my god I got you to laugh!

Next thing I know I was picked up and swung around by Jacob which only made me chuckle more.

Rayan your laugh is adorable. I wish I could here it more often. Listen Rayan I want you to know that I care  about you. If what we build is even a friendship I'd be honored. I know you've been hurt before but please let me help you. Rayan will you let me in. I'm not asking you to start anything you don't want to the choice is yours.

Is this really happening. Can I actually let someone in? What if hell hurt me again like the rest? I've been lied to over and over. I don't think I can do it. Yes I've had a good time here but I wasn't expected this. I don't think I'm ready. I slowly shake my head no.

It's understandable Rayan. Maybe I was rushing things. We should start heading back  now cmon.

He once again grabbed my hand.

If grabbing your hand  is all I can get then its all that I need. Only Time can tell.

Maybe he isn't that bad. Or maybe this is just an act and he's just like the rest.