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My first fast and the day after

Don't care my mistakes in English please.
My parents don't know anything about my anorexia. My best friend same. However they haven't any suspicion, I don't wanted to meet them, when I don't have to. My best friend goes with me in the same school, class and she sits with me in school. Today she goes to Prague to some competition. It means, nobody will care about me in school - perfect.
I must learn to biology test today and I have all notes in school. I said my family, I will go to school earlier. It's true. The benefit is, I can do to school tea, when I not meet them in morning (cause my parents don't agree with bringing tea/coffee to school).
4:05 getting up
then I dressed up, prepared my school bag, brushed my teeth and boiled water (and prepared tea and coffee)
5:05 I left home and went to bus station
5:30 I go to school, but it isn't opened from seven hours. It's my mistake, but when I am getting up later, my dad is awake. So ok, I found good place and I started to learn.
6:30 I bought 1.75l bottle of Coca-Cola zero with cinnamon flavour it's perfect, when I am hungry, but don't want to eat.
6:45 I was on internet and put Coke to smaller bottle, because when I have it in original bottle everybody in my class want to drink it me.
6:55 I went to the school. It's open now.
In the school
1. hour
Everything ok.
2. hour
I feel a little bit hungry, I drunk few than deciliter of cinnamon Coca-Cola zero.
3. hour
I started to feel hungry. I was fighting with that feelings, but I find out I not must to fight. I can accept it, then I will feel perfect, not heavy, feel like I have butterfly wings.
6. hour
I accepted feeling hungry hours before and now I feel good and absolutely not hungry. However I am a little bit tired, I am in flow.
8. hour
I felt quite tired, but stil ok.

During all afternoon
I was making with my mum muffins a pies.
In the evening
I was very hungry and tired.

In the next morning I felt more tired and in ten hours my friend Zuzanka celebrated her birthday and I are more food, than I want. It was emotion hunger.