Just Wanted His Attention Or Not

Thirteen

I was dressed for Jasa'Queen's graduation . I had on a formal lace navy blue dress , gold heels and gold jewelry. My long hair in a big braid . I grabbed my clutch and Chris gave me money . I try to decline it several times but he ain't having that shit so I took it so he'll shut the fuck up. I met Jasa'Queen's parents and they are extremely friendly. But her brother try to hit on me and I ignored his annoying ass. We cheered as Jasa'Queen walked down the aisle to get her degrees. We are so excited for her! We head out to celebrate as her family , coworkers, and our friends piled up at the backyard of Jasa'Queen's parents Sean and Evette big three story house. We had a blast ! Jasa'Queen and I got on our Instagram and Facebook taking pics and recording the fun we have at her grad party. After grad party she got tickets for us two and our girlfriends Heather and Gem to see fashion event tonight at VIP. We said our byes as the party was over.

Jasa'Queen, Heather, Gems and I were all ready for the big day for the fashion event. We had a blast that morning then we went out to eat at a pizzeria place. We went to shop and went to beach and hang out eating our icecreams in a cup. I went to change my Instagram account name to @princesstrustylist love my girls to
pieces! This journey is meant for us to grow and learn the aspects of life on our own. I'm so proud of us til we meet again! # 4 muskateers# my sistas 4 life #bestiestiltheendoftime!
I tagged my girls in it and we cried and hugged each other . Welcome to adulthood folks!

I was at work doing my sketches of designs and everything else. The fashion awards is coming up Friday at 8 and I'm nervous as hell. Chris is coming with me and he already got my dress design and everything from Alexander McQueen. My dress cherry bold red on my chocolate skin with V neck cut low showing chest and boobs . I got on my Jimmy Choo black stilettos and black and red jewelry on . I fixed my natural hair so perfectly in a big puff. I won several awards and I feel so good about myself!

Chris was acting funny as fuck lately for the past three months. I heard a familiar ringtone no one but Chris's phone. I swiped it saying ," Hello who is this?" " This is Nia who the fuck are you! I wanna talk to Chris! " " Bitch shut the fuck up! You better pipe down hoe ! I'm his girlfriend Princessella! What concerns me is my business! What the fuck you want from my man!" " Tell his ass that I'm pregnant with child ! " " Oh wow so y'all be fucking fucking behind my back huh bitch! Answer me thot!!!" I yelled pissed off . " Yes yes we are! I didn't know y'all two together ! " " Bitch please! You can have his yella ass okay. I'll let him know when he gets home!" I hung up on her ass quick and I saw Chris and I slap his ass in the face hard saying," Who the fuck is Nia Chris!? Nigga answer me! Who the fuck is Nia!" " Man no one Princessella! Watch yo fucking tone and quit slapping dumb ass!" I slapped his ass again saying," Lie again hoe! I want you too ! My last time telling ya who the fuck is Nia!" " Fine bae it's someone I'm fucking around with behind your back-" Whap! Pow! Bang! " I'M FUCKING TIRED OF YO ASS CHRIS! IT'S OVER!WE'RE OVER!TAKE CARE OF YOUR CHILD AND NIA! I'M DONE WITH YO ASS! CANT EVEN KEEP YOUR PENIS CLOSE I SWEAR!" I said loudly putting my shit in suitcases and drag my shit out and Chris saying," YOU AIN'T FUCKING GOING NOWHERE !YOU'RE MY BITCH! MINES DAMNIT!" " I'M NOT YOUR BITCH AND I'LL BE DAMN I'LL TOLERATE YOUR BULLSHIT!GO TO HELL CHRISTOPHER MAURICE BROWN! I DESERVE BETTER AND YOU ARE NOT THE ONE NIGGA!" I clapped back and kick him where the sun ain't shining and he grunted out bitch but I laughed evilly saying," Yes a boss bitch Queen I am nigga!"

I moved to Nevada and opened up my business in fashion and styling! My business booming like crazy! I even do clothing and food drives and help people in need like single parents, elderly and kids. My charity drive is Princessella Palace of Need. I have been single for awhile now and I need me a man I swear! But it's hard to find good men these days! I left work and I dread to go to California but my business is up there too so I went to my private plane . Yes I have a child and her name is Heaven Melody Brown! Yes I let Chris see our child. Yeah I didn't realize I was pregnant when I found out Chris cheated on me . He is taking great care of Heaven and Royalty. Heaven and Royalty are now three years old and their sister bond is precious!I dropped Heaven off to Mama Joyce's and I head off to work. I was done at work and Mama Joyce and Aunt Christine invited me to dinner but I declined. They are not having it! So I went home to shower and slipped on black rip skinny jeans, red silk blouse and glitter black All Star shoes. I went to my nice black Cadillac car and drove off to Joyce's house. " Mommy!!!!" Heaven yelled running towards me. " Hi baby!" I smiled picking her up and kiss her. " Are you having a great time with your sister Roro?" I asked putting her down. " Yes ma'am! Oh I see daddy too!" " You saw daddy! That's nice babygirl!" I saw a cute girl she looked at me with her cute little eyes . " Awe hi Roro!" I said smiling down on her. She smile back saying," Hi! You're Purty!" " Awe thanks sweet angel! You are purty too!" Royalty and Heaven held my hand as we three talked. " Heaven and Royalty! Where are y'all- Well hi Princessella! Looking nice! I see our girls love you ! " Chris smiled with charm. " Yeah I love them sweet babies! So how are you Mr. Chris Brown?" I asked as I look at the girls playing with their stuff animals and dolls. " Things are good. Just working hard to provide for Roro and Heaven. Love my girls. How are you Princess?" " Doing good!I am now the big boss of my work in fashion company in Nevada , California and parts of Georgia and Florida. Plus a charity run for my company to help people in need like children, single parents , and elderly. It's call Princesella Palace of Need. I help them when need food, clothing,medical, work, shelter,etc. I love what I do best! I don't regret it. " I smile as Ro Ro climbed on my lap and Heaven climbed on Chris's lap. They snuggled on us and everyone snucked up startling us taking pics. " This is too cute! " Mama Joyce smile hard and she said to get ready and wash up for dinner. Everybody wanna know what I'm up to now and days and how I met Chris. I told them everything and they we're thrilled to hear my life story. I thank Aunt Christine and Mama Joyce for inviting me to dinner. " Come on Heaven! You'll see them again tomorrow ok dear!" " K mommy! Bye bye!" They awed saying bye bye back to her. Chris picked her up and she squealed as Chris kisses her and say," Love you my sweet Heaven so much!" " Love you daddy bear!" She grabbed her Barbie customized suitcase and her Build the Bear princess bear in all purple. She hugged Roro and Roro hugged her back. I snapped a pic of them. Even Chris and Mama Joyce.

I spend quality time with my Heaven cause she's staying with Mama Joyce for awhile I fly across the country to do business work. I felt Heaven all on me saying ," Mommy ! Mommy! Wake up! It's our fun day today!" " Mmmmmm! Ok ok Heaven ! Get your outfit out so you can get a bath ok." " K mommy! Love you!" " Love you too my sweet angel!" Heaven and I got dressed match in cute mommy and daughter outfits. With our names on it. Heaven carries my beautiful dark complexion and eye color and has Chris's tallness and silly character with it. But she loves to sing , dance, paint, fashion and play with makeup. Also baking lol. She's very multitalented! "Heaven Melody Brown! Come on my lil fashionista!" " I'm coming mommy! Ok all set!" She cheesed hard as I chuckled saying ," Come on cutie! " We went to get our nails done, then out to mall and boutique stores to get her clothes and decorating her room. Her room is already painted purple so she's good to go. We went to eat at a pizza place . We are done for the day but it was a blast to be with my little Heaven on Earth! She changed me for the better.