Summary: Reader and Joaquin are fighting and she remembers what they've been through, loving each other since the beginning
Warnings: none (I think)
Word count: 1705
I was crying and shouting while I was holding onto the bathroom sink. Joaquin was punching against the locked door and shouted back at me. "No! Just leave Joaquin! Leave me alone!" I screamed at the top of my lungs and broke down into tears again. "No! Why should I leave?! I'm not the problem y/n! You're just so stressed after work! Every damn day! And you're always letting it out on me!" I was filled with anger and quickly opened the door to rush past him. His face was in shook and he looked after me. Before he could blink I was packing my stuff. "W-What are you doing???" He said, coming into our bedroom and looking at me in confusion. I shrugged as I aggressively threw my stuff into the suitcase. "Removing the problem." I fired back and stormed out of the room to get my cosmetic stuff. He stumbled behind me and didn't know what to say. "I-I didn't mean-" I fake smiled at pushed him backwards so I could walk towards the stairs. "Oh hell you did" was the last thing I said to him before I grabbed my car keys and drove away.
I was driving on the freeway when my phone rang. The fifth time. I rolled my eyes and wiped my tears away when I saw it was him again. I didn't know where to go so I drove towards the airport, thinking about to fly to my parents and take a week off.
3 new messages from Babe
"Please drive back home"
"I'm sorry"
"Let's Talk"
Hot tears were running down my red cheeks as I looked at my phone and parked the car. I was so angry at him, I was about to smash my phone. I got out of my car and took a deep breath. In and out. I leaned against my car and thought about what to do now. My family lives in England...I couldn't fly to them now, could I? I climbed into the car again and started the engine. 3 new missed calls and 5 new messages from Babe.
"I messed up"
"I know"
"I love you so much"
"Come back"
"Please"
I decided to call Elena, my best friend. She told me to calm down and wait for her. She lives a few hours away, but honestly I didn't care. I had plenty of time. She eventually picked me up and we drove home towards her, me telling her what happened. "Don't worry y/n. Everything will be finde, but for now, let's get something to eat okay? I'm sure you're hungry, aren't you?" I smiled and closed my eyes, trying to calm down and thinking about what Joaquin said.
Maybe I am overreacting. Maybe he is right. And maybe I am stressed because of my work. But am I mean or rude towards him?
1991. It was a warm and sunny Monday and also my first day at my new school. I was pretty excited to see my best friend Elena there. She was new too. Both of our fathers were pretty wealthy and working at the same project so all of us were traveling a lot. It wasn't a big deal for me but I was so glad to have Elena with me.
I was pretty popular at my old school so me and her weren't that scared. "Hi Ellie!" I said and hugged her. "Hey Babe, let's get inside" I quickly checked my white overknees and smiled at her. She giggled and grabbed my hand, dragging me inside the building. "Hopefully there will be some 'snacks' in our class... if you know what I mean" she giggled and I slightly slapped her arm. I wasn't a big fan of high school boys, they're so- I don't know, somehow they were gross and annoying to me...
We got introduced to our new class when I suddenly wanted to change my attitude towards high school boys. In the last left row there he was. Joaquin Phoenix. Smirking like a fool at me. I couldn't help but stare back. He was biting his lip and chuckled. What was so funny? Then a elbow hit my hip, Elena was trying to say something to me. I turned my head at her and frowned. "What?" She grabbed my arm and giggled, nodding towards our teacher. "Ehem- y/n would you please say hello and sit down now?" Our teacher said for the 3rd time. Oh. Oops. "Um hi" I said and found my way towards the cute boy. Nobody was sitting next to him so I took the opportunity. "Hi" he grinned as I was coming straight towards him. "You're cute..." I waited for his name "Joaquin" he smiled and laid his arm around me. "You're really pretty y/n."
1992. Me and Joaquin still didn't date. Neither of us knew why. Even though it was obvious that we both loved each other.
1993. Joaquin and I became more than friends after a wild party, making out and having sex. We were friends with benefits for a long time until I met Brett. He was the quarterback of the football team. He asked me to prom and we eventually started to date. But somehow it was really hard seeing Joaquin all alone. Elena and him were even more friends back then because Brett took all of my attention. And of course Joaquin and I stopped the whole friends with benefits thing. I thought he wouldn't be sad or mad at me, I mean we only had sex with each other, nothing more. No feelings. Well ... at least we said that to each other. I did love him, and for sure hell I knew he loved me too. But the worst thing about my relationship with Brett was the loss of time with Joaquin. Our lives were splitting up.
1995. I met Joaquin again. Actually, at the gas station. "Omg hey! Soo good to see you! You still dating Brett?" Was the first thing he said to me and I giggled. I hugged him and shook my head. "No" he cheated on me. Like I always said, high school boys are trash. We became friends again, but that only for a few weeks. It was a Friday night, we were out eating dinner and he just simply grabbed my hand and smiled. "You know, I missed this. I missed you. So much." I smiled and squeezed his hand softly. "Let's not waste another 4 years y/n... let's not begin to have sex in a year and tell us that we don't feel anything again. ... Let's not do this all over again...." I smiled and a tear rolled down my cheek. He caught it with his thumb and grinned softly. "I love you. I've loved you since you came into the classroom y/n..." "I-I know. I have too-" I stuttered between my tears. He smiled and leaned in to kiss me... Since then we have dated. It took us 4 years and only the devil knows why.
"He- he always told me to do yoga" I laughed while watching the trees pass by and wiping my tears. Elena laughed and looked at me. "Why?" "Because I'm always so stressed out after work..." she gently smiled at me and put her hand over mine, parking the car at the next free spot. "Please call him y/n. I know you miss him, and he misses you for sure too." Both of us looking at my bright phone display.
57 new messages from Babe.
Elena rubbed my shoulder and smiled as he was leaving the car to give me enough privacy. I took in a deep breath and hit the call button. Oh god I don't know what to say. I was about to end the call when suddenly I heard his voice. "Y/n?" He was crying. Because of me. It was so stupid of me. "J-Joaquin" I started to tear up again. "Y/n..." he repeated and searched for words. "Joaquin I- I just want you to know that I- that I'm sorry. I shouldn't have left and I shouldn't have been so mean to you" I sobbed and leaned against the window. I was so happy to hear his voice again. "P-Please tell me where you are y/n, are you still in the car?" he asked worryingly. I lowly giggled "No. No I'm with Elena... I'm alright, are you? ...please tell me you still love me" there were a few seconds silence but then he started to speak again "oh my god y/n. Of course I do! .... do you?" His voice cracking at the end of his sentence. "Of course, I always will" I cried into my phone. "I'm so sorry Joaquin. I didn't realize it back then... I promise you I won't do it again... I'll do yoga and-" he interrupted me. "Please come back home. That's the only thing I want for now, I just want you back home and in my arms" I bit my lip and nodded. "Me too."
We were talking through the phone the whole drive back to my car. I was so grateful for Elena. She's truly a great friend. "Maybe we can adopt a dog? It would distract you from the stress and it would be something we both could put our time in to together" he said and I literally cried again. "Really? You mean it Joaquin?" Elena laughed and told Joaquin to drive to the airport too, so me and him could drive home together. "Thanks Ellie. You're the best best friend ever." She smiled at me and giggled. "Can't let you guys be apart for 4 years again, can I. It isn't 1991 anymore"
Hi boo!💗 sorry for not updating but I was partying with my friends really hard (oops) and Jesus Chris I had such a bad headache (still kinda have) 😂 Sorry again. I love you! Have a good day/night💕
•Ya Clown Queen🃏💞
