Chapter 4

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Tris POV

After about 45minutes of sitting with the only blood related family member left, dead, I walk back to Tobias' hospital room. I keep imagining that he will wake up. That he isn't dead that he will be full of life once more. Christina comes in again.

"You should get some sleep, you look really tired," She says.

I follow her reluctantly out of the room, taking one last glance at Tobias. I fall asleep as soon as my head hits the pillow. 

I walk up to the window outside the room where Tobias lays. I see a group of doctors talking to eachother, with the occasional look at Tobias. I look over to where the heart monitor is and see that the line is going up around once every 5 seconds. This can't be good I think to myself. One of the doctors see me looking in through the window. He breaks the conversation and comes outside.

"I am very sorry. Tobias Eaton is no longer with us," the doctor says. 

I want to scream. I want to scream until my throat burns. I feel as if I have nothing to live for, no purpose to live. 


I wake up, my neck slick with sweat. My heart is racing. I get up and run to Tobias' room, praying that my dream will not come true. I look over at the heart monitor and a weight lifts from my chest. The nervousness of actually letting him go, letting him pass on. I don't even know how I could live anymore. One by one, each member of my family has died because of me. My parents because of the war and how I am divergent. My brother, who went in to the weapons lab because that was the only way to repay me for his wrong-doings, and finally Tobias. He shot himself because of everything he has done. Even for just putting me at gunpoint. I sob quielty into my pilow. I feel someone wrap their arms around me. I look up, praying that it is Tobias. No, it's Christina. I turn around and cry into her shirt.

"Hey," she says.

I don't respond. I can't. The weight of death and greif is crushing me, and it will continue to crush me until it convinces me that there is nothing worth living for.

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