Poems and Other Stuff

In my feelings

If anyone is bi or gay then you will understand what I'm about to say. It's hard to find the one especially when that "one" is a girl. In school I have a problem figuring out if a girl is bi, gay, or straight. Recently I actually fell for this girl. She was fine and bad af! I even dreamed about her just hoping one day we'll be together. All the signs was just telling me she wasn't straight. But boy was I wrong! She's strictly dickly. :( Now I know things can change. If someone was to ask me would I ever date a year a girl a year ago. I would've said ewwww hell noooooo. But things just changed for me. I fell for this girl who was actually one of my best friends. I told her how I felt and things ended badly. Our relationship will never be the same. But anyway it's just hard to come out in school without people knowing your business. And it's even harder to kick game or even flirt with girls without knowing their sexuality. When a girl hits you with "I'm straight" or "no" that shit hurts. It's like glass shattering. I'm bisexual. Honestly I don't want my next relationship to be with a guy. I want to try something new. But that's so hard for me. I don't know what to do. I get advice from people about it but I just don't know how to take it and improve. But I guess I'll just move on from this beautiful, gorgeous, funny, and amazing crush. Bye ?????? Deuces ✌