Texas Darkness

14- Toxic

Texas Darkness 14

Toxic 

After your heart stops, and it’s restarted again, you have this blackness attached to your being. Like you cheated death. I had cheated death a lot lately. I had done a lot of things in my life I wasn’t proud of anymore. After the doctors and nurses brought me back, I had this mental clarity. Not totally of course, but I had some memories. They were fierce and angry.

Adam.

He was the first thought I had when my breath came back inside my body. While the electricity surged thru my body it hit my brain and Adam came back to me. I would kill for that boy.

Everything I had ever done wrong in my life was eating away at me. I didn’t deserve to come back, keep living, and screwing up all the people around me with my toxic behavior.

I knew this now, my toxic behavior was contagious and dangerous.  

Adam was the light at the end of my tunnel

I sat in my bed waiting for someone to come into my room that morning, I had questions and I wanted answers. My first questions came to the Nurse from yesterday Bertie. Over all she was a nice lady I felt slightly bad having to ask her so many questions so quickly.

She didn’t seem to mind answering them all that much. I still felt bad asking.

I learned that my mother found me because the police took my fingerprints and since I was wanted for questions previously I was in the system with a rather high alert attach to my personal information. Since I was a minor, which it turned out I had turned 18 while I was in a coma, previously to turning 18 they contacted my living contact which was my mother. My father was busy in Jamaica with his new wife, Emily. Being in a coma for two months apparently has its benefits though. When my monitor beeps loudly many people come running inside to attend to my needs.

I felt a little bad about that, I was sure this was my fault over all. I couldn’t remember the accident of the days before the last real solid memory I had was waking up next to Adam in the safe house. After that everything was cloudy.

Obviously I knew who did this to me.

Lucian.

He was on the top of my list.

He would pay for whatever he did.

The next things I learned was, my mother was not only happy I was alive and well, she was pretty pissed I got in all this trouble. She had sent me away so I couldn’t get in trouble at all. She was pretty pissed at her brother, my uncle, for letting me be able to run away at all. Apparently that’s “irresponsible.”

Can’t say I blame her, I if I was in her shoes id be pissed at me too.

After Bertie left, I sat for a while in my bed watching the window.

A lot of clouds today.

I completely knew why people hated hospitals, sitting in one for more than five minutes it’s like an eternity.  The guys came in shortly before my mind went crazy with boredom.

It was glad I could remember who they were again, and I felt guilty and bad.

For everything.

The door had opened and Ethan came in first. He looked tired, and a little pissed. Daniel came after him and they were arguing about something stupid. Jasper was behind them, and he sounded like the voice of reason.