hi this is a more serious thing it's not like straight porn like the other chapters and i'm sorry i'll update this book w more smut soon but i needed to post this somewhere because it's the ONLY thing i'm proud of so you better enjoy it.
The crunch of leaves from under us filled the air as we walked deeper into the woods. A lighter bumped against the top of my hand, telling me to grab onto it.
"Do you want a cigarette?" I broke the silence, speaking over the leaves and waited for a response from him. He nodded, and I reached into my pocket to pull out a box of Marlboro's. Plucking one out and passing it along with the lighter. The crunching of leaves stopped as I turned to watch him slip the cigarette between his lips and cup the end with his hand, flicking the lighter and lighting it. A cloud of smoke came from his mouth as he gripped the smoke between his fingers. The crunch of leaves continued once again.
"There's usually a lot of deer out here, don't know where they all are though." His voice muffled from the cigarette once again between his lips, I turned to him and watched him take a long drag while looking through the trees. Before grabbing the smoke from between his lips again and letting it rest between his fingers, a thin line of smoke coming from the end.
"When was the last time you saw one?" It took a moment for him to answer.
"I dunno, I never come out here" I watched him take another long drag.
"Why not?"
"Don't feel like it"
I sighed, resting my face in my hand. Inhaling the smoke in the air.
"There's so many questions I have for you, you know that right?" Out of the corner of my eye I saw his head turn to look at me, giving him a look back as I studied his confusion. Maybe intrigue.
"Oh yeah?" He looked away staring back into the forest.
I kept my gaze focused on the ground, dead brown leaves stared back at me. Ruby sat down next to me, making my body tip towards him. My eyes traveled to his arm, looking over all the tattoos scattered around his skin. I knew he noticed so I stopped trying to hide it. I turned to face him, grabbing his arm and turning it to see all of them.
"What does this one mean?" My thumb grazed over the big tattoo covering his entire forearm. The image of the eiffel tower, exploding. I kept staring at it.
"9/11 was so shocking to America because the twin towers were a symbol of strength and success for us, after they got attacked we lost some kind of resistance in a sense. We felt like we were sitting ducks." I nodded my head, glancing up at him as he continued to talk.
"In short it represents terrorism."
"Oh."
"The eiffel tower represents the revolution for France. If it were to get bombed the feeling of power it gave to the people of France would be lost. Terrorism means loss, loss and power over someone else because of what they've accomplished. That's how you create fear, loss."
"Edgy Ruby"
"Thanks" He passed me his cigarette butt, I smashed it into a leaf before throwing it out into the forest.
I finished my cigarette and disposed of it the same way. The wind going through the trees made the leaves rustle echo, my hair twirling around my face.
"I wanna go back to the house" He stood up, before beginning to walk back to the house. I followed behind him.
"Do you miss your ex?" He stopped walking. A long and audible sigh came from him.
"I'd like to think I don't." He resumed walking, slower. I hung my head a bit listening to him beginning to speak again.
"Was she your first love?"
"Not anymore"
"You can't choose your first love, Ruby" He went silent for a couple of steps.
"Love feels helpless and I hate feeling helpless so no she was not my first love" His head was low, he kicked leaves as he walked and began dragging his shoes through the dirt. Smudge marks decorated the white soles.
"She was your first love because if she wasn't you wouldn't have her name tattooed on your neck" He turned to me and lifted his hand to point in my face.
"Don't fucking tell me if she was or wasn't she wasn't because she decided one day to suck someone elses dick and I happened to be the unlucky fucker who had to find out about it. Five fucking years went away just like that, now I have her name on me so every morning I can wake up and be reminded of the day I found out about everything." He turned around and walked towards a rock, before picking it up and throwing it as hard as he could into the trees. I watched him walk away from me in silence.
