Now
Struggling everyday
Said, "We'll die anyway"
Negativities began to slay
Positivities fade away
All I could remember
I should trust the Maker
He will give me power
To make everything better
To start now
Distraction & doubt will bow
Everything will flow
In His goodness will show
She read a lot this day. Not because she was bored; not that she have a lot of time. But because she wanna shut everything out: her thoughts, her worries and her feelings. She wasn't feeling lazy, she promised. But she was struggling to face the responsibilities, so instead, she choose to make herself busy with things, unnecessary. Not appropriate as she have things needed to be done.
One day, she wasn't really feeling good about herself. She was physically, mentally & emotionally unstable. She wasn't eating and sleeping well. There were days she was able to push herself; enough to start somethings, but left them unfinished.
There are times that she was on track, but something seems so bad and make things complicated for her. As if it doesn't want her to start what should be started. And now, she want to voice it out because she's really getting frustrated about it.
She's heard a lot of encouragement, but it seems like she let herself be defeated a lot of times. How she prays tomorrow she would be able to start, and be excited about everything. She misses herself.
May she remember to dedicate her life to her loving Father, who trusts her and cheers for her with all His heart. May she fuel her faith and start to think how all things are possible.
