" do i even want to know how this happened ? " asks richie as he picks the final piece of glass out of the shivering boy's hand.
he simply shakes his head 'no' and turns his head to the side, trying to avoid any sort of eye contact with the boy in front of him.
" yes i do. tell me, eddie. now. " he grabs hold of his friend's chin and pulls it back towards him.
he wants an answer and he wants it, as he had said, now.
" i was angry . . . " he mumbles, his eyes dotting down towards the floor.
richie clicks his tongue, unhappy with the answer and seemingly more worried than before.
" why ? what made you angry, huh ? "
eddie stays quiet, holding his now neatly wrapped hand close to his chest.
" eddie, please. "
eddie thinks about why he is upset.
why he feels so pain ridden.
why his body still aches.
why he can't stand to be near anyone, not even his own best friend.
the guy he cares more about than, really, anything.
he'd never tell him that though, of course.
" i don't— . . . " he can't tell.
not now.
not ever.
he just can't.
" i don't know. "
there's a heavy silence, it's unbearable. it's not the type of comfortable silence they often sit in. it's a body crushing kind, a heart breaking kind.
" i just . . . i—i just . . . " he stammers, tears brewing in his eyes, reaching the brim quicker than ever.
" oh, richie ! " he collapses against richie's chest and sobs loudly, clenching his fists by his side out of both anger and distress.
" oh, edds. " richie holds him close to his own body, rubbing his back and whispering 'calm down's ' in his ear.
oh edds . . .
what has happened ?
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