It's Only You

Chapter 19

I check my room one more time before I text Harry.

How do you know what I was drawing? You are not even here.

I only have to wait a few seconds before I hear my phone buzzing. I open the text.

I was in your room, I wanted to talk but I changed my mind before you came back. But I do mean what I said about your drawing, it's good.

I smile at his text. Yes, his mood changes alot but he is not a bad guy. I think about what he said in his diary. He must have written more than only one page in his journal right? I grab it from my nightstand along with the papers D wrote me.

I open his diary and compare the handwriting. It's not the same so Harry didn't wrote these. It's not like I thought Harry wrote the notes. Just to be sure.

I read the first page again. Who was he talknig about? I flip a few pages. Nothing. I sigh and I'm about to close the journal again.

But then I notice something. The last pages are glued together. I rip them softly open and about 4 pages appear. I look at the date. One is from a few years ago but the last one is from 3 weeks ago.

A few papers fall on the ground and I pick them up. My eye catches my name. I start reading.

Andrea. From the first time I saw her, I knew she was different. She is not like the other girls. She doesn't need to be populair, she doesnt need a 100 friends. She just needs one. She is funny without even trying. She is innocent. We talked a few times and I wish I could make her feel good, special, that's exactly what she is. Why would she fall for a guy like me? If she only knew what I've done. I don't want her to be affraid of me.

I'm already affraid of myself, and that's enough.

I read it over and over again. What did he do? I would never be affraid of him. Maybe that's why he changes his mind so fast. He doesn't want me to be affraid of him. I have so many question but no one can answer them except for Harry.

I get some other papers and read them. He writes about his day and about school. Nothing special. He writes beautiful though. Now I understand why writing class is his favourite. He writes how that is the only thing where he is good at.

The last page is from a few years ago. This one looks interesting.

I had to do it. It was better for me and Gemma. He was dangerous. I couldn't help myself, it was what I had to do. And I'm not sorry about it. No one knows what I did, expect for my dad. I'm not even sorry about it. But what I did to Ella... I'll never forgive myself. I had to. She knew to much, she new to much about me and what I did. I loved her too much, and I want to be with her the rest of my life but I can't. She is gone now.

I feel my heart beating in my chest. What the hell did he do? He didn't... right? Harry isn't that kind of guy. I don't want to believe it. I bet he doesn't mean it like this.

I look at my phone and see it's almost 3 am. I lay down and think of the papers. The things he wrote. Only one thing is on my mind. Harry.

With that thought I fall asleep.

- - -

I'm waking up with the same thought as last night. I'm still confused.

I'm happy it's weekend so I have some time to think. Well, not much time. School has to be a dick like always. I have to write 2 essays for monday and I didn't even start yet.

I notice it's already 1 pm so I walk downstairs to get 'breakfast'. My mom is at work and I have no idea where my sister is. I guess she is at a friend like always. I grab milk and cereal.

I think about Sarah, so I decide to call her. I realize we haven't talked much lately.

After 2 rings she already picks up and I hear her voice. She is always so happy.

"Andrea oh my god hey! How are you?"

"Heyy, I'm fine what about you? I miss you."

"I miss you to! How is school?"

"It's okay, already made a few friends. It's not so bad though." I say smiling. I realize how much I miss her now.

"Ohh that sound good! Tell me."

"Well, this guy named Niall I hang out with him and I girl named Nicole. She is from school and pretty nice. Also Harry." I smile at his name.

"Oehh, so this Harry right?." She says. It feels like she saw me smiling. Or is it that obvious?

"We are friends. But he is confusing, you know boys. Don't hope too much." I laugh and she laughs with me.

She talks about school and about the new rumours. She tells me about one of the populair girls named Mia. I never really liked her. Sarah tells me how everybody says she is pregnant. I love to listen to Sarahs stories.

We say goodbye to eachother and I grab my laptop. Time to make my homework... I have to write something about first world war. I love history so I don't really mind to work on it. It just takes alot of time and that's what bothers me.

I hear a knock on the door, I wonder who it is. I open the door and see Harry standing outside, smiling at me.

"Heyy, did I woke you up?" He laughs and I look down at my pyama's. I laugh to.

"No, didn't want to change. I wasn't expecting someone to come over to be honest but come in." I walk inside and Harry follows me.

Harry is wearing a black shirt with black pants and a red bandana like always. "So, why did you came here?"

"Just wanted to see you." Harry says smiling at me. I feel my cheeks turn red again and I look away.

"Andrea?" I hear Harry say and I face him again.

Before I can respond I feel his soft lips crash on mine. His hands rest on my hips. Harry's touch make me melt. The kiss gets more passionate and it feels like my stomach is going to explode. He lifts me up and I wrap my feet around him. I have no idea what I'm doing but I don't care.

I feel my back hit the cold wall. I pull Harry closer to me. Our lips never leaving eachother.

I open my eyes and see Jade looking to me. She looks shocked and I push Harry away. Fuck.

A/N heyy guys! Oh my god the #FOURHANGOUT was amazing and so many Narry moments I'm still not okay!

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