Fake smile

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 I never knew this would happen to me in this life I always thought that I would have a nice family where me, my older sister, my little brother, and....my real parents would spend our Christmas next to the fire in the fireplace watching a movie and drinking hot coco all together like a normal family right?....but... it turned out NOTHING she thought....not even close.... my parents fought a lot when I was very little and I had to see that everyday , I also saw my older sister cut herself everyday, and I even tried to run away from my home when my parents fought and the thing is... I tried doing that when I was 7 years old!.. 

I almost managed to do that but my  cousin that was one years younger then me stop me and reminded me that my little brother Daniel (but I liked to call him his nickname papas) and I was a happy girl during that time...I don't know why I was happy there but then not happy here.... but I never left my little brothers side after that..

We got adopted my our tia Adriana and my dads brothers friend Berto in 2018....and in 2020 their getting married!....but...my sister didn't want to be adopted and left me and my brother....and we never saw her after that....and after that I gussied I was depressed....but always covered it with a fake smile but inside I would always try to convince myself just to end my life because I thought life never like me and just wanted to kill myself. 

So when something bad happens to me I always say to myself "no one wants me here I'm just a mistake so just end you life no one would care.....and if they did care then they wouldn't do all these things to me....like yell ant me 'what the h**l is wrong with you Nelly?! Is there something wrong with you in your head?!'....yeah....I should hang myself in my room...." but I never did....even though my brother tells me "I hate you Nelly I wish you were dead already!" Yeah my 6 year old brother told me that....well on with the story and how I got my fake smile...