Pagkagdating ko galing sa Produce Academy ay agad naman akong sinalubong ni Lucas sa may gates. Still remembering what he told me and what he did that day, agad akong umiwas sa kanya pero sunod pa rin siya ng sunod.
His fangirls startes trailing after him at nagbubulungan na rin sila, kaya naman medyo naririndi ako. He was trying to hold my hand pero iniiwas ko yun.
"Vernice, just please talk to me. You never do, anymore," sabi naman niya, but I just ignored him.
Bakit may lungkot sa boses niya? Bakit may ganun?
"Vernice, come on. Don't be like this. I meant what I said, I'm not gonna take that back." Sabi naman niya, kaya natigil ako sa kinatatayuan ko at saka agad na hinarap siya.
"Anong pakialam ko?" Sabi ko, my voice dripping with coldness.
Ayoko. Ayaw kong maattach ng sobra sobra. Sapat na yung naging magkaibigan kami, pero yung sabihin niya na gusto niya ako at wala siyang balak na bawiin yun? No. I can't. I just can't take it.
Kasi alam ko, na sa estado ko ngayon, hindi malabong mangyari na magkagusto din ako sa kanya, kahit na may pangako akong pinanghahawakan sa sarili ko.
I can't.
"Vernice naman," sabi niya, but I ran.
Pinagkaguluhan na siya ng mga fangirls niya, at tumakbo naman ako sa may garden para mag isip isip. Hell, no. I can't replace him with Lucas.
Naupo ako sa may grass and then breathed in and out heavily, trying to think calmly and push away the thoughts. Pero, hindi ko magawa.
"No! Don't push her! She's hurt!" Sigaw ng isang batang lalaki, at saka tinakpan ako.
My mom was trying to hit me again, kahit na puno na ako ng pasa, at nasa may park pa kami ngayon. She wasn't scared of getting judged because she is a Nakamoto. Nakamoto's are feared in our area. No one can dare judge a Nakamoto.
"Step away, you idiot," sabi ni mom, at saka iginilid nang marahas ang bata.
Agad naman na hinila ako nung bata, and then we ran. Mom was trying to call me back, pero hindi niya ako hinahabol dahil sa pride niya. Of course.
"Come back here, you imperfect child!" Sigaw niya, but my cries muffled her voice.
Nakarating kami nung bata sa may tagong lugar, and then he hugged me. He rubbed my back as he tried to comfort me. I was about six that time, and Japan was where I was. Who knew someone would be here, helping me from my supposed mom, and he happens to be a boy my age?
"Shh. Don't mind the old hag. You're perfect. You're a brave beautiful kid," sabi nung batang lalaki, and then he kissed my forehead.
"T-Thank you," sabi ko, and then bago pa man ako makapagsalita ulit ay dumating si Yuta-nii-chan.
Umalis na yung batang lalaki nang patakbo, at agad naman akong niyakap ni nii-chan. He held me tight, and then carressed my hair.
"Shh, did she hurt you again?" Tanong ni nii-chan, and I nodded as I cried on his shoulder.
Up to this day, I still wanna meet that boy. Because that was the day I saw my worth despite my mom trying to tell me I was worthless, imperfect, and shouldn't have been born.
Pinunasan ko ang mga luha na nagsituluan pala kanina, at saka tumitig sa langit.
Will I ever meet that guy again? Wait, why am I even crying again? I should be fine. I should be fine. I should be-
I'm not.
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liar ♡ lucas wong
Fanfiction[ nshitty series ] "you're a liar, wong yukhei," in which she was a wallflower, and he was the exact opposite. cover by @venleyy
