writing practice

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based on an actual stray nightmare event, but an au version of it where mike accidentally kills adam. its unfinished, and i dont think i ever will finish. theres no proofreading or anything, just something i typed in my notes over the span of a few days. i havent posted in a while, so enjpy

"God, no!! Not him! Not him!!" Mike yelled out, spitting out blood and chunks of flesh.
  "Please, what did I do?" He mouthed through his crying
  "What did you make me do?" He corrected himself. He never wouldve killed Adam if Steve hadnt made him. He tried to switch his teeth out, but he was just so worked up that the shark-like set wouldnt budge. They made him feel dangerous. It was a feeling that normally made him feel powerful, but now he didnt care. He just wanted his brother back.

  A hand grabbed at his shoulder. "Get up. Were goin-"

  "SHUT UP!!" Mike screamed, pulling away from Steve.

  "Michael,"

  "Dont fucking call me that."

  "Steve, wait, leave him be." Mia jumped in. She knew he wouldnt change his mind, but she did want Mike to know he wasnt alone.

  "It doesnt matter, hes dead now."

  "Hed still be alive if it wasnt for you!!"

  "Fine. Were leaving. Have fun getting back home in the dark." Steve said. He genuinely didnt care if Mike got home or not. He didnt need him anymore, now that he did what he needed to. He was being a crybaby about it anyway. Steve waved his hand and guided the other two away.

  Mike never replied. He stayed in his spot, cradling Adams lifeless body with a sort of tenderness he didnt know he was capable of. He didnt know what drove him to kill him. Why did he listen to Steve? Why did he let him make him take a huge chunk out of his throat? Why couldnt he protect him? Why? Why, why, why, why, why!!? It was a mistake! A horrible, horrible mistake!! Give him back!! Give him back!!!!

  "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry, Adam, I'm so, so, sorry," He choked out. It hurt. He felt empty, but his heart burned. His stomach ached, and he could barely breathe anymore.

  I killed him. I killed him! I KILLED HIM!! ITS MY FAULT!! THIS IS ALL MY FAULT!!!

  It was getting cold. He needed to go home. But he didnt want to leave his side. He didnt know where to go. It was pitch black. Would he have to just sleep in the woods? Probably. He pulled Adam to rest on a tree.

  "Get comfy." He sniffled. He turned and reached out for a tree branch in the pitch dark. When his hand bumped into one he grabbed it and began climbing the tree. He settled on a branch strong enough to support him and tried his best to get comfortable. It was hard, because this wasnt his bed, this was a tree, but he tried because this was the best he was getting for the night.

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  The air was cold and the sky was grey. Mike woke up cold. The sun was just beginning to rise. It wasnt pretty at all, it was just cold and grey. He wondered why he was in a tree, but then remembered the events of last night. He jumped down and got a better look. It was even more horrible in the light. Dried blood, his lifeless eyes, the flies and other bugs, and oh god the smell.

  Backing away, Mike almost began to cry again. Hed done this. He gagged. Where to go. He had to get out of here. He ran. No clue where he was going, but he ran. Gotta get out of here, gotta get away.

  "OUHF" Mike loudly grunted as he tripped on a tree branch. He couldnt pick himself up again. Hed gotten far enough. He couldnt see it, he couldnt smell it. It was like it never happened, he lied to himself. But it was a fruitless lie. Hed never be able to get over what he did. He curled up on the tree that tripped him. He hoped hed die there.

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  "Mike."

  "Mmmmgm"

  "Mike!"

  He turned around at the small zaps that hit his back. Four people stood around him. His friends. Mia and Arthur, and two faces he hadnt seen in a long, long time.

  "What do you guys want?" He asked angrily.

  "Mike, calm down, its ok." Mia sat next to him. Arthur smiled stupidly. Jess disappeared. Granger just squinted at Mike. Mike stood up, confused and defensive. Why was everyone just standing around him? What were they gonna do? Fight him? Yell at him?

  "Just tell me what you want or leave me alone!" He backed away, trying not to let his teeth show. He didnt realize that over night they had reverted back to his human teeth, but now the shark ones were trying to come back again because was so worked up. Mia noticed.

  "We just want to help you, Mike." She told him. He shut up, but didnt calm down much. Mia understood. Shed always been the one to understand his feelings the best.

  "I didnt mean to kill him! Just leave me alone!!"

  "What are you talking about?" Granger asked. Nobody explained to her what was going on. She just came along. Mia turned to her. She wanted to explain. She knew Granger and Adam were close.

  "I killed him, I killed Adam." Mike whispered, falling onto his knees.

  "What??" Granger was shocked. Adam was her best friend, how could he? Mike kept crying.

  "Im sorry, Im sorry Granger."

  Granger felt less angry now. She still couldnt believe he was dead, they just talked yesterday! She got down next to him. Mike got up and tried to run again. Nobody stopped him.

  "That- no thats not- thats not like him at all. He would never hurt Adam.." Granger looked at Mia and Arthur, confused.

  "Steve forced him to. After that he snapped at Steve and he made us leave him here- here in the woods." Mia fixed her hair.

  Granger sighed sadly. There was a long moment where it was all dead quiet. No birds, no animals, no wind rattling the remaining leaves, nothing. They all stared at each other awkwardly. Jess came back.

  "Where were you?" Granger asked as Jess latched onto her jacket sleeve. Jess pointed behind them all. Mia and Arthur remembered at the same time that she couldnt speak anymore after what happened when she and Granger tried to leave the cult.

  "Whats over there?" Mia asked, having an awkward staring contest with Jess. Jess pulled down her mask to mouth it out.

  "Adam."

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  Mike ran until his lungs burned. He nearly collapsed, tripping over his own feet more than twice. He leaned against a tree and sobbed. He just wanted to be left alone. He didnt want to know or care what the others were doing. As long as he was alone.

  What have you done??

  He got down on his knees and gagged. God, he couldnt believe he actually killed his own brother. How did Steve do it and feel no remorse? How did he do it and laugh? It made Mike sick to his stomach. So sick. He vomited on the tree. 

  He wiped his mouth and sobbed. Why did he leave so early? Why did he join this stupid cult? Why didnt he cherish the childhood he had with Adam? If only he didnt leave to join the cult, everything would be ok! Adam wouldnt be dead! Hed have all those amazing memories that he now struggled to imagine. It was all so long ago. He hardly thought about his childhood. He didnt like to. Whenever someone brought it up, he never thought about his brothers. He thought about Alfred. Ew.

  What was he gonna do now? Was he gonna get arrested? Was he gonna go home and have to live with a murderer for the rest of his life? Was he gonna live in the woods? Was he gonna die? He hoped hed die. It was what he deserved. He was a murderer.

  Dont pass out on the tree again. Dont let them find you. I never want to see them again. I cant.

  Mike moved on at a slower pace.