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I secretly visit my psychiatrist three times a week to cure my condition. My mind is blowing up again, and it's coming back.

She advised me to surround myself with positive people

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She advised me to surround myself with positive people. Asked me what I have been up to lately and I told her everything. I told her that I want to be alone again and be free.

I asked for her help not to tell anyone about my condition, I don't want them to worry about me, again. But she insisted that I should tell my family so that they'll be able to help me, but I declined.

Maybe one day I'll just disappear like a dust.

Everything went fine. Okay na kami ni Shaun pero I told him na nag iba na feelings ko sakanya that's why mas okay kami as friends. Which is totally not the truth.

I told him that kasi kung mawawala rin naman ako one day mas magiging masakit para sakanya.

I received an email from DLSU saying my application for a scholarship in Australia was accepted. I was deciding if I'm gonna tell my family or not. They didn't know I applied one and I also asked the administrator of the school to keep it a secret.

Great timing.

I already planned everything, leaving everyone behind was my best choice. Good thing I'll be leaving during class hours and di ko classmate si Louisa sa subject na yun.

"Mommy asan si achi?" Nagtatakang tanong ni Riley. Every Tuesday kasi hanggang 3pm lang class ko and after that umuuwi na ako sa house. Pero ngayon I am nowhere to be found.

"Ah, maybe she went out with her friends. Alam mo naman si achi paminsan busy." My mom who wasn't really bothered kasi it's just normal for me to go out.

"Okay. I'm gonna get my toy sa room ni achi because I left it yesterday when we were playing." Riley was about to open my doorknob but he realized it was lock.

Mom opened my room and what she saw next left her speechless.

"Huh? Where are the things of achi? Why can't I see her stuff and clothes?"

"Dad! Dad!" Sigaw ni mommy na umiiyak at kinakabahan.

"Bakit?!" Pinuntahan niya sina Riley sa kwarto ko at nagulat din siya ng makita niyang wala ng laman ang kwarto ko.

I left a letter sa study table ko which caught the attention of Riley.

"Mommy look"

Dear family,

Ito na nga talaga yung araw na hinihintay ko. I'll be leaving for good, not really sure if I'm just leaving everyone of you behind or leaving this world for good :)

Sorry kung bigla nalang ako aalis. Please don't cry, I'm really trying hard to battle with this condition. You can ask doc Ramos to know what happened to me. Yep, bumalik ulit siya and I've been visiting doc for the past few months. Sorry talaga mom and dad, sorry for disappointing everyone of you.

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