I wonder why no one told me the world is this cruel. Maybe to let me enjoy that little time in my hands to be happy? I don't know. I... I jus-....I just don't feel anything now. I feel numb. As a child, this world was colorful, so where did it go wrong?
Sevian Chandra Rovsky. 19 years old at hindi ko padin alam san ako lulugar sa mundong ito. Anyone can relate? Like... nakakainggit kaya yung mga taong parang alam na nila kung saan sila patungo, kung ano yung path na tatahakin nila while I'm here, stucked in the midst of doubts, fear, and uncertainty. I literally tried everything to find where I belong, name it and I have it.
"Seviaaan!" I heard a voice I know its from my mom. It's 6 am and I feel so numb, maybe because hindi nanaman ako nakatulog. I tried my best naman pero-
"Sevian?! ANO HINDI KA BABANGON? MALALATE KA NANAMAN? HINDI KA NAMAN GANYAN DATI AH! KAPAG YUNG GRADES MO BUMABA SA PAGPAPABAYA MO NAYAN BAHALA KA SA BUHAY MO SAN KA HAHANAP NG PAMPAARAL SA SARILI MO! TANDAAN MO YAN!" sigaw ng mama ko. Yes, its my breakfast for today. I wouldn't even dare to eat now na nalasap ko na ang matatamis na salita ni mama
"Sevian umali-"
"Opo ma, I'm heading out already." I replied hurriedly. Parang ayaw ko ng dessert this morning, the breakfast is already making me feel sick.
Coming to school is more of a chore for me nowadays. A chore that needs to be done, and by the word done, I mean done PERFECTLY. Ganito siguro kapag nagpakita ka ng potential when you were a child, It's fun at first kasi nakita ko na source of happiness yon ng parents ko and the people around me loves me more. But now its more of a curse. People around me expects too much! One mistake and I'm done.
After this much of ranting in my mind, I finally arrived at school. Hindi ko na napansin na nakarating nadin pala ako. Seeing this place makes me want to puke. I hate it to my core.
"Sev!!!" sigaw ng maingay at bulabog kong kaibigan
"Charee tandaan mo illegal ang wangwang, baka gusto mong iconfiscate nila yung bunganga mo"
"Ang sama talaga ng ugali mo HAHAHA, pero maiba, bakit late kananaman? may jowa kana no?" pang aasar ni Charee
"Walaaa! hahahaha naipit lang sa traffic on my way" sagot ko naman
"Ah okay, hindi naman pumasok yung first period natin so let's head to classroom"
Kev Charee Anuncion. My best friend. Sya yung isa sa mga taong nagbibigay ng kulay sa madilim kong mundo. Actually hindi ko alam ang gagawin kung wala sya. Kung pwede lang makipagbreak sa miserable feelings nato, ginawa kona.
To be continued...
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When Did It Go Wrong?
Roman pour AdolescentsAs a child, this world seems colorful, but as we age, what happened? When did it go wrong? This is a story of a group of people who have different colors that blended with each other.
