Nique POV ''' Oouh Ma , look at these shoes right here , they fire ain't it ?'my 12 year old son Jaylen asked me . "Yeah they iight I guess 'I said while taking a second look at them . I'm Antonique but I usually go by Nique . Not really much to say about me but I'm 33 I'm short and sweet but I definitely don't take no shit . I grew up in the suburbs of Atlanta born and raised . I'm currently a supervisor at Apple where I've been for 3 years . It gets aggravating at times but hey it pays the bills . Like today for example , one of the most longest stressful days ever and yet here I am stuck in this line at FinishLine for these shoes Jaylen just had to have 🙄. Jaylen's dad and I (Corey ) separated when he was 7. He's since remarried , we coparent great for Jaylen , well correction when he feels like it . It's been almost three months now . But that's another store for another time . Y'all know how it goes . I'm single as of right now
It's just me and my son . I watched as Jaylen ran off looking at some other shoes and I couldn't help but think where'd time go . it'll only be a couple more years and before I know it my baby boy will be graduating high school and headed off to college . I took a second look at the line and wondered where the hell was this sale associate with these damn shoes . I eventually just stopped looking and just waited , I went inside my Micheals Kors clutch and pulled out my iPhone 11 and scrolled Instagram . I laughed to a video of Jess Hilarious when somebody bumped into me hard as hell causing my phone to fall and almost causing me to fall . Before I could fall I felt somebody grab my waist . "I'm sorry bout det ma , let me help you up " a familiar voice said . 'Nah you okayy thank— as I stopped mid sentence after realizing who it was . I rolled my eyes and pulled my hand back . " No I'm straight , next time just watch where tf you going " . I responded . I swear I have the worst luck today . Outta all ppl that bumped into me literally it had to be HER ?! Like tf . "You tryna build a case or sumn I said sorry ma damn , it ain't gotta be like that."she replied . "Yeah Okay Desirae " I replied as I turned back in line waiting on these slow ass cashiers . Oh yeah Desirae was my dawg of an ex girlfriend . She was my first and last girlfriend I might add . We were together for 7 months . We met at work . Her personality attracted to me her . It was so demanding so ugh I cnt even explain . She came in and fed me dreams on how I was so beautiful and she wanted to take me out to get to know me build with me and blah blah y'all know them lines ladies . At first I was standoffish by her being 8 years younger than me and of course by this being the first and only girl I've been interested in or attracted to . Well eventually we started texting , talking on the phone late night , just because dates and gifts and not to mention the sex was AMAZING . She was a sweetheart for the most part but don't even get me
started on her attitude and temper . The WORST ! I've NEVER in my 33 years of living EVER met someone so nonchalant and stubborn . And please don't get me started on her hoes aka her fan club . That along with her attitude and quick ass temper were the main reasons for our arguments . It didn't help that we worked together and everytime I turned around it was ALWAYS a different hoe in her face smiling or some random female commenting on her social media . I'm no insecure female but shit don't be out here entertaining these hoes giving them false hope like y'all gone be together or sumn . The main one being this girl named KaDeja or whatever tf . Eventually I got tired of just sitting there keeping quiet . I ended up asking about it and of course with Desirae it ended up turning into a huge argument and I ended up throwing my phone at her head and basically telling her go fuck herself. 🤦🏾♀️ A week after us falling out , I head into work and what do I see.? Yup , Desirae all hugged up in the exact bitch face she once told me " don't worry bout her babe , she just a friend "🙄 . I lost it and went off on her at work and then clocked out and left work for the day . I blocked her from all my social media accounts and from my phone and haven't spoke a word to her since well until today that is . "Mmhmm Whatever " I turnt around and told Desirae . She just shook her head and walked off to get an associate . " Heyy yo miss excuse me , can I get these in a size 6c please" she asked the associate . The lady gave her a wink and ran to the back to grab her shoes she asked for . I couldn't do nothing but shake my head . See what I mean . I couldn't even lie Desirae looked fine asf right now . She had her hair pulled up in a high messy bun and a fresh tape and fade . A red and black Jordan shirt , true religion ripped black jeans and the black and red 12s that just came out and her bottom girl in her mouth . Shit, just looking at her for me wet asf as a sex flashback hit me . Wait tf am I saying . I was so lost in thought I didn't even notice her tryna catch my attention . "Come on Nique , we just left off unfinished man , you ain't even give me a chance to explain myself ma " Desirae looked at me and said as she grabbed my hand . " "What you mean Desirae , ain't nothing to explain you been entertaining her and ain't no telling how many others I was just slow asf to catching on to it but it's fine you good " . I looked in her face and said as I pulled my hand back . Why tf she even here anyways I thought to myself . Just as I thought that the cashier came back carrying both Desirae's && Jaylen shoes . She gave her shoes to Desirae to inspect them before paying and the cashier had an extra wide smile on her face as I watched her slip her phone number in Desirae's shoe box . Thirsty Bitch ! I chuckled and thought to myself . "Come on Bab— I mean Nique we was friends before all this , I miss you as my friend man , she said . " Yeah I bet you do , you messed that up though not me " I told her just as Jaylen was running up to me . "Yoooo What's Up Jay ,you getting up there now my boy , got muscles and shit now " , Desirae told Jaylen after dapping him up. "What you doing in here Rae , what you got " Jaylen asked her . " I ain't getting nun today man , had to come get Ari them new 12s baby girl gotta match my fly too you know " she told him. Desirae and Jaylen had their own special bond . From her picking him up and taking him to basketball practice , haircuts , hell she even came over sometimes just to chill with him . Jaylen && I were in love with Desirae's 2 year old daughter . My little sweetheart Ari , she's literally the cutest . I just stood there and folded my arm while they finished they luh conversation . They continued talking while I grabbed Jaylen's shoes and my card and receipt from the associate . I'm fr Nique don't count me out just yet man , I miss you let me make it right " she pleaded with me . I couldn't do nothing but stare at her . Just looking at her brought so many feelings I tried to push away . I sighed . I'm not doing this today . "Okay we'll see Desirae " , I told her . " I promise, I ain't gone mess this up this time " she said as she pulled me into a hug . Shit 💦. Is all I could think as I took in her Armani cologne . "Okayy I replied with a fake smile and then walked off heading to my 2019 Kia Sorento . I made a quick stop to Wing Stop to grab some dinner for Jaylen && I before we headed in . I cnt wait to take me a longggg bubble bath and sip on me some wine . . I FINALLY made it home and the first thing I did was shed out my work clothes , grabbed my bottle of Taylor port and my favorite wine glass and headed to my master bath to start my bath . I started my bath water , piping hot of course && threw in my bath bomb and my bath flower petals . I hooked up my phone to my Amazon echo && let the warm water and the sound of H.E.R soothe me .After almost falling asleep in the bath , I finally got out and got dressed in my pajamas . I unlocked my phone and placed my phone on do not disturb . Seems like everytime I even attempt to sleep or relax EVERYBODY wanna call my phone . I set my wake up alarm for 6 am and scrolled thru my contacts and came across Desirae's contact . Debating on rather or not I should actually unblock her or not. I already got more than enough stuff going on and another heartbreak I'm definitely not up for . Half of me is screaming hell no and the other half is left wondering what if . And then there's still the biggest elephant in the room .... MY FAMILY 🤦🏾♀️ What will my family think ? I was raised in the church all my life with my grandpa being a preacher and what not , I don't wanna say their judgemental as fuck but let's just say they are . I went thru so MUCH when they found out I was pregnant with Jaylen all because we were "unwed and shacking up " as they would call it . Ugh ! But then again why should I care what they think . Despite Desirae's flaws she really was amazing when we were together and not to mention a big help when it came to Jaylen . Jaylen loves her and Ari and that says a lot . It's like I give soo much to everybody but who's there for me . Like seriously . I can take care of me and my son just fine but sometimes it would be nice to have a little love and affection sometimes and for once not have to worry . I deserve to be happy too shit . Fuck it ! I hit unblock caller on her contact and locked my phone back . Hopefully this doesn't come back to bite me in my ass I thought to myself as I reached over and turned off my bedside lamp .
