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Oo

Di mo lang alam naiisip kita

Baka sakali lang maisip mo ako

Di mo lang alam hanggang sa gabi,

Inaasam makita kang muli.

Palagi nalang bang ganito? Am I supposed to just keep it to myself? Is he supposed to remain oblivious about what I feel?

"I am not available at 5 pm. Can you make it at 2?" he requested.

"Ha? Bakit? Napag-usapan na natin diba? You already agreed at 5 pm, Charles." Pilit ko. Napag-usapan namin na gawin na ang thesis namin by 5 pm dahil wala pang nagagather na data! Di naman ako availabale ng 2 pm dahil may scheduled meeting ang council.

He's cold, lagi naman. Parang walang pakialam sa mundo, "Angel's mom is coming and we're about to fetch her." After that, he left. Angel, his girlfriend, comes first before anything. He's with Angel for 6 months now. Siya lang ang babaeng na-link dito so I bet he's serious. Ang katotohanang 'yon ang gumuho sa panaginip ko.

So, I guess it's a yes. He was oblivious. I was wrecked.

"Hoy, Bree!" I was at a shed in our university, gumagawa ng thesis mag-isa, as I felt my hair being pulled. Bwisit. Bestfriend ko ba talaga tong Kick na to. Bata palang kami, hilig manghila ng buhok. Bakla yata to.

"Lumayas ka sa harap ko!" Umalis naman siya sa harap ko at pumunta sa gilid ko. Talino, bro.

"Sungit mo. Ni-reject ka nanaman ni Charles, no? Naku. Alam mo, wala kang mapapala. Crush palang naman. Hanap ka na ng iba." I fell silent at tinignan lang siya sa mata. Knowing him, magaling siya magconclude.

"The hell.. so mahal mo na?" He looked serious. Umiwas lang ako ng tingin. "Mahal mo na nga siya!?"

"Hindi.."

"Don't you dare lie to me, Bree! Crush lang diba? Crush lang yan! You know nothing about love! Ignorante ka dun!" That hurt my ego. Just because I didn't have a boyfriend doesn't mean I'm not capable of loving.

"OO! I love him. Pwede ba, Kick. Tatlong taon na kong may gusto sa kanya. I already sorted my feelings out. And don't you dare preach me about loving and blahs because you're the one who doesn't know how to love.. or even feel for that matter! You just take woman for granted."

That's true. Wala siyang karapatang pangaralan ako dahil siya mismo, pinaglalaruan ang mga babae. Hell with the guys.

Sasagot pa sana siya nang biglang may dumating na lalaki,"I'm sorry, I'm late." Nagulat ako ng makitang si Charles yun. Hindi ba dapat kasama nito si Angel?

"You're more important," aniya na siyang sumagot sa pagtataka ko. But am I hearing things right? Mas importante ako?

"Tss," umalis na si Kick. Nakita ko siyang lumapit kay Macy, obviously his girl at the moment, at hinalikan ito sa pisngi. We argued again pero sure ako na magbabati rin kami mamaya. Di ako matitiis nun.

"Did you two fight?" Tanong ni Charles.

"Hindi." I answered blandly. Pero nakatingin lang siya sakin. Yung tingin na nakakatunaw. Yung determinadong paaminin ka.

"Oo na, nag-away na kami." I gave up because of those familiar stares that caught my heart from the very first day.

He smirked, "You'll get over that. You're his bestfriend." What the hell. Alam niyang bestfriend ko yun? I thought he knows nothing about me.

It turns out na kilala pala niya talaga ako. Honestly, ngayon lang naman kami naging magka-block. And I felt giddy that he knows my favorite spot, dito sa shed na to.