The first time
You're scared
I was scared
Would it hurt as much as I thought?
No it didn't
It didn't hurt as much
It actually felt
Good
Like I had control
Over something in my life.
I know it wasn't a good idea
But is the only idea.
I can't help it
I like it now
It feels good
But now that I have done it
I regret it
Cause if I wear shorts sleeves
My friends will ask me about them
And only one friend
Knows the real problem with me
I promised him I would never
Ever
Cut.
I'm sorry friend
I couldn't help it
I am just a disappointment
To everyone.
But for the first time
I feel better
Not good
But better.
I'm okay.
For the first time.
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A/N
Okay so I am not promoting self harm I just wanted to get out what I feel and since no one who follows me really knows me, it's okay. Alright. Well if you need soemone to talk to comment and I will give you my kik and we can talk about it ok? I don't want you to feel bad about your life. Ok?
