Sad Little Joker

2

[Next Day]

Walking into the music room, I closed the door and looked at that piano. I became hesitant on performing. It's been a few years since I last did.. Gently as I wanted to be, I touched the piano before opening the cover. I help my breathe as I saw the keyboard. The memories of what happened replayed in my mind, causing me to pull my hand to my chest. Can I really do this..? I thought, feeling my body shake softly. Gently slapping my cheeks, I sat down in front of the piano and gently played a tune that gave a dark vibe.

"Hold on.." I softly sang. "Hold onto yourself.. This is gonna hurts like hell.." I slowly began to have the confidence I did before. Closing my eyes, I remembered where each and every notes were as I continued on. "So now you're sleeping peaceful.. I lie awake and pray.. That you'll be strong tomorrow.. And will see another day and we will praise it!~" I yelled out as I remembered the night. "And love the light that brings a smile..across your face.. Hold on! Oh god! If you're out there won't you hear me..? I know that we have never talked before." Hanging my hand down, I shook my head to get rid of the memories, only for it to run in like a thunderstorm. "Oh god! The one I love is leaving! Won't you take her when she comes to your door!~" Changing the tune of the song, it became gentle and soft. "Am I in heaven here or am I in hell..? At the crossroads, I am standing.. So now you're sleeping peaceful..I lie awake and pray that you'll be strong tomorrow and will see another day and we will praise it!~ And love the light that brings a smile..across your face.." Rolling my head, I had let go on everything I held in, tears rolling down my cheeks while the song was reaching the climax. Remembering that sound, it caused me to fully see the bodies of my family within my mind. "Hold on.. Hold onto yourself.. This is gonna hurt like hell.. Hold on.. Hold onto yourself.. This is gonna hurt like hell!~" The tune of the song turned soft. With my head facing the floor and resting on the piano, I saw my tears and sweat hit the floor gently. "This is gonna hurt like..hell.." With the last note played, I was breathing heavily to gain air into my body. Though I may be rusty, I still have my voice intact. Just need more practice and I'll be good. I thought, looking down. But still..that image always comes up.. What if I choke? It'll disappoint Tohru.. I'll disappoint everyone..

"That was lovely, Miss (L/n)."

Blushing immediately, I looked at Yuki in embarrassment. "S-Sohma! W-What are y-you doing t-there?!" I stuttered.

"I'm here for the practice. Did you forget?" Yuki walked in and turned on the lights, getting a full view of my current state. "Miss (L/n), are you okay?!"

Before he became any closer, I wiped away my tears and put up a smile in front of him. "I'm sorry about that. Please don't worry, Sohma!"

Within a second, his hands were on my cheek and wiped away a tear that had unconsciously rolled down my cheek. "If it's about your past self, it's alright. I won't pry but please do tell me if you want to step down from this.. I do worry."

I moved away from his hand and looked at the piano. "Did you enjoy it?"

"I'm sorry?"

I chuckled softly and looked back at him as my hands were behind my back. "Did you enjoy the song that I sang?"

Yuki smiled softly at me and nodded, sitting down by the piano. "It was a lovely song, Miss (L/n). Do you plan on singing this song?"

Shrugging, I looked out the window. "Not sure.. Kinda have mixed feelings about this one.." Sitting down at the piano next to Yuki, I smiled sadly at him. "I'm just confused which one our classmates would like the best, since everyone is so different.." I lied.

"That may be true, but it's entirely your choice, Miss, (L/n)." Yuki pointed out. I nodded and smiled.

"Let's start, we're not gonna finish if we keep talking. First, let me hear you play. From there, I can teach you."