The loving

Chapter 1:Embarrassment

One day I woke up out of bed and my mom wasn't,normally I will put on my uniform and get ready for school but today was different it was like something told me to stay so I did,then my mom got home and yelled at me because i just sat there in the morning just there but  not there at all I feel like my whole soul left. So I grab my stuff and after getting yelled at I left the house and started walking and that's when I saw him and it made feel happy for once in my life but he walk away. At that moment I feel love even tho I didn't know who he was. So I continued So that's when  I meet her, her name was Zipporah She look like she ran from home to i said hello and she said goodbye and at the same time I wanted to pick up a stick and hit her with but i can't let the darkness take over.S then I sat down even when i know she wanted me to leave but I didn't, I had nowhere to go. 

So I stayed and talk to her even though she not listening but it was good to get everything off my mind. Then she finally said something "wow you think your life is bad" and i said yeah then she said " you don't know the half of it about having a bad life.After we got to know each other better and it was late really late I had to go home and she did to so we shook hands and left I was walking home and kept thinking about that boy, I was sad that I wouldn't see  him again. So i went home and when I got there my mom wanted to talk to me and to be honest i just wanted to stab her but I didn't because love this evil side of me is telling to do something that i don't want to but will enjoy doing it.so we talk it wasn't that important so I went back to my room and listen to my favorite song, which is lovely and after that feel asleep.

I woke up the nest they and gt ready for school and when I got there my teacher m. hill said we got a new Student and it was the boy  I saw yesterday and i almost  died of shock after he found a place to sit i couldn't help but wonder what was he thinking  about me and then it was time for lunch and .The  person i hate the most was there I hate do most and wouldn't mind killing is Jacob and was  talking to the new kid  apart of me want go over there and choke him but You I didn't , no matter how much i wanted to i didn't so I ate lunch by myself of  course then it was time for free period and i was just writing in my notebook and then that's when i felt a tap on my shoulder it was the new kid He said he had no friend and he wanted to know i was willing to be his friend fuck everything up i said the most stupid thing ever i said "Can I kiss you" right then and there i just want to die and he said "no what never mind, the person I really like ask me to be his friend and I completely ruined it.