Willow (Gxg)

Disaster Day?

Jax POV

I woke up the next morning feeling like a giant pile of ass. I lazily get out of my bed, and a slight panic started running through my body as I couldn't find my phone. Throwing everything in my room in a fit of panic, I heard a thud on my floor as I threw my blanket off my bed. My mind and body calmed down as soon as I found it.

I turn on my phone, I kinda hoped all of the notifications I got last night were fake, but they weren't. I stared at my phone for a few minutes. Mainly at the 8 messages from Willow. A new notification pops up on my phone, a text from an unknown number. I decide to open that first,

UNKNOWN: Attachment, I hope the queen is still the CLEANEST of them all.

I deleted the message knowing someone must've recorded it, not wanting to open the messages from Willow, I did anyways.

Willow: Jax I'm so sorry I didn't know Casey would do this I would have stopped her if I could

Willow: Jax are you in the school! I still can't find you

Willow: Jax where are you?!

Willow: Please tell me if you're home

Willow: Jax please answer I'm getting worried

Willow: Jax I'm going to my house if you want to come over to talk

Willow: I told Casey I'm not going to be apart of her "Mob of brainless zombies" as you would say

Willow: Good night Jax I'll see you tomorrow morning.....

Tomorrow morning? I kept thinking tomorrow morning over and over. Then I slapped my forehead. 

"It's tomorrow morning today!" I must've said that too loud because I heard my mom from downstairs asking if I was ok. I run downstairs to confirm that I was fine. 

"Oh, Jax honey you have a visitor," I look at my living room couch and there she is, Willow. My stomach starts getting butterflies again...I remembered that I just woke up...I JUST WOKE UP! I could feel my face starting to turn red at first I couldn't move. Then Willow flashed me her signature smile and giggled, which made me even more red. I realized I was staring at her the whole time and I ran upstairs to get changed. 

It took me about 5 minutes before the blush on my face would go away. I'm almost dressed when Willow comes into my room, I was standing there in a pair of black skinny jeans and one of my sports bras. Willow just froze, she stared at my body. She got out of her weird daze and started muttering apologies and closed my door. Leaving me in my room beet red for the second time today. I throw on a plain white muscle shirt once she left. 

I kept thinking about how Willow reacted earlier upon entering my room. Was she ok? her reaction was weird maybe she's not straight...Nah that's not it. I threw on my white converse and ran back downstairs. 

"Hey, uh Jax are you ready to go?" I looked at her confused.

"Go where?" Willow just grabbed my arm and dragged me to her dad's black SUV.

"I thought you couldn't drive?" I looked at Willow curiously and she just smiled

"I can't legally but I have my temps and a fake driver's license." I just shook my head at Willow. This girl keeps surprising me more and more every day.

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Its almost been an hour and I'm becoming extremely restless. To pass the time Willow and I got to know each other more and we also sang to songs on the radio.

"Are we theereee yeeettt?" 

"Jax you've asked that 5 times in the last 10 minutes. No, we are not there yet so stop asking me that." I jokingly started to pout like a 5-year-old which made Willow laugh. 

"OH MY GOD, I LOVE THIS SONG!" Willow turned up the radio and began singing along to All of Me,

What would I do without your smart mouth

dragging me in and kicking me out

got my head spinning

No kidding

Holy shit Willows voice...she finished singing the song a few minutes later. Willow's face started to blush a little bit.

"I've never done that in front of anyone before. I never thought I was good enough so I always did it by myself." Willow parked the car next to a beach.; By the time we got there, the sun was already setting.

"We're here," she mumbled. I saw her walk out of the car towards the white sand. I run out of the car and caught up with her. I stopped Willow and turned her around.

"Hey what's up with you Willow? First, we were having fun in the car, then you sang like a fricken angel and now your mood went from happy to irritated real quick. Can I get some answers, please?" 

"No, you can't get any answers from me and you won't Macy!" Willow had a flash of fear in her eyes her expression became scared and defensive. She didn't look me in the eye

"Macy? Willow are you ok I'm not who this Macy person is." Willow looked at me and blinked a couple of times. Tears started rolling down her face and she hugged me. Her head was laying on my shoulder. I didn't know what to do but I slowly wrapped my arms around her which made her cry even harder. Willow removed her head from my shoulder, her eyes were red and puffy. You could see the tiredness on her face

"I-I'm so sorry Jax I'm sorry I'm sorry I-" I saw some people on the beach, but I didn't care. I cut Willow off by putting my lips on hers. Willow's lips tasted like vanilla and honey, I could also taste the saltiness of her tears. Willow started kissing me back, our lips moved in sync for what felt like forever. I broke off the kiss, soon missing the taste of her lips and how soft they were against mine. The sunset was set perfectly for the kiss too.

"Willow, it's ok I promise whatever is going on you can talk to me. Do you want to go home?" She nodded her head and we walked back to the car she got in the driver seat and I got in the passengers seat. 

The car ride home was silent, there was no music and not a word was spoken between us. I caught Willow sneaking small glances at me but I think she hates me now. Why did I kiss her?  I was Mentally beating myself up for that the most, but one thing was still bothering me. This person named Macy. Who was she? What kind of impact did she have on Willow? Why did Willow seem scared when speaking about her? 

Willow stopped in her driveway, I was about to leave the car when she started to speak again

"I don't know if I can do this Jax. I mean the kiss was nice and I've been wanting to do that since we met but What does this mean Jax? What are we now? I don't think we should do this people will talk. I don't care but I don't know if you would or not-" I cut Willow off again by hugging her this time. I looked at her and her eyes were full of hope and sadness, happiness and anger all at the same time.

"I'm sorry I shouldn't have kissed you it was wrong I'm sorry." I stopped hugging Willow. I couldn't see anything in her eyes. All of the emotion from her was gone.

I couldn't hear after she said those four words. I felt numb, I had to go numb the pain again, I couldn't handle it. That tipped me over the edge. I've fallen back into my darkness again. I was in it and she brought me out of it. Who knew that one of the most important people in your life could bring you back out of your darkness but also put you back in it ten times deeper than before. Her words, those words that tipped me over the edge kept ringing in my head over and over

"It was a Mistake." 

A/N 

Ok so I was going to be mean and make Jax and Willow seem like they were going to kiss but I wasn't originally going to have them kiss but whatever I think me publishing this late was punishment enough. Anyways vote, comment, tell your friends about my story, or whatever y'all do. I love you guys and I hope you'll enjoy this chapter and the next. I just hope y'all enjoy my story. Until next time ❤❤❤❤