I used to think that it would be great to feel nothing at all.
Now I take that all back.
I felt so much, so much fear, sadness, sometimes happiness.
So it was too much for me to handle.
Maybe I got used to it.
To those weird bad feelings.
That now I feel nothing.
I barely feel anything inside me.
All I feel is empty holes inside my heart and mind.
There are moments when I feel a little but of happiness or sadness.
Those are the best moments for me then.
I'd rather feel happy than feel nothing.
I'd rather feel sad than feel nothing.
When I feel nothing, nothing is what I feel, I feel like I'm emotionless monste.
Then I don't know who I am anymore...
