MESSENGER
December 8, 2020
Keaton Grant Zaveri
09:08
JAIRUS
Unlike you, I grew up as a happy kid.
Mababaw lang ang kaligayahan ko kaya kahit sa simpleng bagay, masaya na ako. Maayos din naman ang pagsasama ng mama at papa ko dati kaya walang naging problema. Kahit kaming apat na magkakapatid, magkakasundo. Pangalawa ako sa matanda. Una si Kuya Adrielle, pangatlo si Kaiden, at bunso si Adrienne.
Pero isang araw, unti-unting nagbago lahat. Nanlabo ang paningin ni mama na 'di katagalan, naging dahilan para mabulag siya.
And I... I was the reason why she died. My selfishness was the reason. Had I known she'd go after me, I wouldn't have run away. I would've stayed.
After she died, I hated the fact that no one ever blamed me for what I have done.
So to remind me of the grave sin I have committed, I scarred myself.
Deeply. Painfully.
So deep that it'll leave a mark and so painful that it'll drive me numb. All until there's no choice but to remember the sin I've done forever.
It is my atonement, is what I think while an ex-convict, monster, and freak is how they see it.
sent
