Hated[RusAme] ((DISCONTINUED))

Chapter 4

Warning!!
Self harm
Cursing
If you dont like these topics skip the chapter

Russia's POV

I was walking home alone since I got detention for being late. I sighed as I walked. I truned my head to see the boy I saved earlier. He look like hes been crying. I wanted to go comfort him, but something told me no.

I sighed and continued to walk to my home. Then my phone buzzed in my back pocket.

Yeetus: hey um... can we talk?

I look at the message. When he ask just to talk two things had happen to him. 1. He got beaten up by his dumb fucking parents and 2. He got a panic attack.

Drunk Comrade:ya about stripes?

I wait until he replies

Yeetus: I-.... I got into a fight with my parents a-and....

Drunk Comrade: stripes... were are you?

Yeetus: wat?

Drunk Comrade: where are you? Im coming to get you.

Yeetus: how do you know we live near each other?

Drunk Comrade: I dont but if I do live somewhere near where you are I want to see you I want to hug you and tell you everything is gonna be ok face to face

Yeetus: im at the Rose park

My eyes widen I just passed that park thats where I saw that coumtry from before. I strated to run towards the park. I have never ran so fast in my life. Jesus my legs started to hurt like hell.

I soon run across the road and got to the park. I saw no one there. Then I called out his name. "Stripes!" I yell as I walk down the park pathway. I don't see anyone here. 'Did he play me?'

Was my frist thought but I know that he wouldn't do that to me. His to fragile to lose his best friend. I check my phone to see.

Yeetus: hey... my parents found me and im heading home now help me? But you cant im sorry for wasting your time all the damn time. I'm such a loser, sorry for... for living.

Tears started to stream down my face god Im gonna kill how every hurts him. His so pure. A tear falls from my face to the phone. I quickly type him back.

Drunk Comrade:DONT EVER SAY THAT ABOUT YOURSELF YOU GOT THAT? you deserve the world you will stay alive if not I'm ganna die so please dont do it you probably thinking about doing but dont I can't
lose you to ok? Please...

Tears fell. I wiped my tears before I start to walk to my house. God I Can't lose him. Not now not ever. I mumbled to myself. Then I ping came from my phone. I quickly look at who it is it's Ukraine.

Ukraine: where the hell are you?

Tall MotherFuker: on a walk....friend texted me.... I cant lose him Ukraine...

Ukraine: I understand I cant lose my boyfriend either...

Tall MotherFucker:wait you have a boyfriend!? Wothout telling your big brother!? Dude you can me your gay honestly made sense since you like flower crowns.

Ukraine: Just because i like flower crowns doesn't mean I'm gay Rus

Tall MotherFuker: I know it's how long his di-

Ukraine:shut up now or youll sleep out side Russia

Tall MotherFucker: ouch pulling the dog house card on your older brother like that. That hurts.

Ukraine:shut up and get home.

I chuckle a bit and put my phone in my back pocket. I slowly walk out of the park, but as I do I can't help but notice that someone's watching me. I trun around nothing. No one, 'your going crazy' I thought as I walk to my house.

********~Later~*******

I finally manage to get home. I unlocked the door with my key and step in. I took off my shoes before I took more steps in the house. Our father always made us take off our shoes.....

Had made us anyway.....

Our dad died not so long ago. Even if it was better off without him it still hurt. We loved him, yes he wasn't perfect but we loved him. He gave me on of his hats before he left. I closed my eyes a remember thos old days.

I soon head up into my room a sit on the bed. I look over my shoulder to see it. The tiny razor blade i used to cut myself since he died. I reached for it but quickly pulled my hand away.

Then the voices came. 'Fuck' i thought. I quietly curled up in the coner of my bed and covered my "ears". "Your no good~" "there lying to you~" "you give him EVERYTHING and he stands you up forget him" "cut~ ill make you feel better~"

"No your all wrong leave me alone." I said in a whisper. "Your a worthless son~" "NO one every loved you~" "quite while your ahead and die, everything will be better that way~" "Cut~ it will work it will help you get over your dad right?~"

Tears started to form in my eyes. I know I shouldn't listen and that there lying but..... Just this once it will be ok. I quickly grab the little razor blade and held it over my wrist. I took a deep breath and started to cut.

Each cut represents a person I have failed.

U.S.S.R
Ukraine
Belarus
Kazakhstan
Estonia
Bulgaria
Croatia
And the rest of my siblings...
And strips

We could have meet but I wasn't fast enough. I could have saved him from his hell hold of a house but I couldn't get there fast enough. I got up and walked to the bathroom and washed all the blood off my arms. The open cuts stang as I the water washed the blood away.

I pull my arms away from the water and truned it off. Then I started to count. 1..2..3..4..5..6..7...8...9...10
Then I continued. I lost track after I got to 100. There was about 100+ cuts. I sighed and put badges over my arms. Some blood came through them but I really couldn't care.

Thanks for all the support and readers Im getting! I honestly didn't think the book would get any reads but it did.
Word count 1062
Alright bye everyone!
The photo is ugly!!! ;-;