LA Life| jabezvill *DISCONTINUED*

chapter 9

julian sitting there on his phone. i walked up to him and cleared my throat his head shot up
julian: yn, hey
he stoop up and tried to give me a hug
yn: what do u want to talk about?
julian: not here
held his hand out for me to grab but i ignored it and just followed him. it was silent between us i had a bad feeling i was going to regret this. with or without jabez knowing its still going to hurt him.we got to his room and we went in.
julian: soo
he sat on a chair and i hopped on the bed and sat there in silence for a bit and julian broke the silence
julian: what happened to us? we were in love, i care for you yn, i love you
yn: we WERE julian that's the thing! you swear that u love me but where were you!? where were julian when i needed you most
i started tearing up and julian got up to hug me
yn: no
julian: yn im sorry, i know that wont fix anything but nothing has changed! i love you still, i care for you. i was stupid! i dont know what was going thru my mind!
yn: julian, dont you get it!? you left me when i was at my all time low! AND PREGNANT WITH UR CHILD! YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO COME BACK TO ME AND TRY TO FIX THINGS WHEN I FIND SOMEONE ELSE THAT MAKE ME HAPPY AND LOVES ME NO MATTER WHAT
i was full on crying now and having a hard time to breathe, julian sat next to me and started rubbing me back and shushing me i xalmed down a little and he wrapped his arm around me
julian: i know i cant fix that, im sorry i let you go thru that alone my love i wish everyday i could take that back and be there for you and love you the way youre suppose to be loved. im so sorry i hurt you, i wish i didnt put you thru this. i love you y/n and i wont ever stop chasing you
i just cried in his arms we just sat there for a while, i finally calmed down and stood up.
yn: can u take me home please
he shook his head and we walked out to the car and i just sat there in silence looking out the window we pulled up
julian: bye yn, i love you
yn: bye julian
i got out and walked up to my door i stood there for a bit, i took a deep breath and unlocked the door to find no one home. i sighed and walked to my room and found jabez asleep on it. i sighed and cleaned myself up in my bathroom and sat there and cried for a little. i looked at myself and saw that my eyes were puffy and red. i walked back into my room and saw my phone on my nightstand, i grabbed it a checked everything. i got into bed and jabez woke up
jabez: yn?
yn: yeah
he got up and looked at me and his expression changed to concerned 
jabez: babe are you okay!?
yn: yes, i have something to tell you
i started tearing up
yn: i went to see julian, but just to talk to him and get answers, im sorry i didn't tell you, its just that you're already worried about him and i didnt want you to be mad at me, im over him i promise.
jabez: yn im not mad at you, i just want to know why u did it behind my back?
i took a deep breath
yn: im ready to tell u what went on between us
*beginning of flashback*
yn: i cant go out ive been feeling sick
kay: youve been sick these last couple days, are u ok?
yn: i dont know, i just dont feel up to it
kay: what me to take u to the doctors?
yn: i guess
we went to the doctors and waited there
kay: how are u feeling?
yn: ehh im just ready to lay down
dr: yn?
we got our things and went into the room and we both sat there.
dr: how are you yn
yn: good, just been having morning sickness and i wanna throw up any food i eat.
dr: hmm, how long ago did u have ur menstral cycle ?
yn: i dont even know
dr: are u sexual active ?
yn: yes
he got up and grabbed a cup and handed it to me
dr: can u go pee in this
i went to pee in it and he left to get some results
kay: what are u doing if u are pregnant ?
yn: i dont know, im not ready for this
kay: i know i know
kay pulled me into a hug and i had tears running down my face.
kay: julian is going to be so happy
yn: i hope he is
i wiped my tear and blew my nose and the doc came back in.
dr: yn u are 6 weeks pregnant
i was shocked and didnt know what to say, we finished up there and drove home. i laid i  bed and started to think, and i started crying and thats when lai walked in and gave me a big hug and i cried more
lai: have u told julian?
i shook my head no and just sat there thinking how im going to tell him that he got me pregnant. i got up and threw on sweat pants and a hoodie
kay: where are u going?
yn: to tell him
kay: right now?
yn: yes, i 6 weeks and i cant keep it a secret
i got into my car and drove off to julians house i got there and sat in my car for a bit to think of what i was going to say, i finally got the courage to get out so i made my way to the door and opened it and was greeted by mama barboza
yn: hi mama barboza
i gave her a hug
mb: hi sweetie what are u doing here?
yn: i had to talk to julian, is he here?
mb: yes hes in his room, can u drag him out hes been in there all day!
we both laughed
yn: ill try
i walked to his room and saw that he was live
julian: and look its my beautiful girlfriend, come here babe
i smiled and walked over to him and gave him a kiss
julian: my baby is the cutest
i blushed and sat on his bed and started talking to his brother
julian: alright yall im gonna get off now and spend some time with my babygirl bye
yn: ur so cute
julian: thank you thank you
we both laughed and he got in bed next to me and gave me a long kiss on the lips
julian: i love you
yn: i love you too juju
i giggled and we sat there for a moment and i spoke up
yn: angel can me and julian have some privacy i need to talk to him.
he nodded and walked out
julian: whats up
i sat up and looked at him and he saw worry in my eyes
julian: yn whats wrong!?
i started crying a little
julian: baby come here
i engulfed him in a hug and sat there for a moment and he sat there rubbing my back, i looked at him and he pecked me on the lips
julian: u ok baby?
i shook my head no and took a deep breath
yn: julian ... i
i choked on my words and julian was patiently waiting i whispered
yn: im pregnant  ....
julian: huh?
i spoke a bit louder
yn: im pregnant
his eyes got wide and i looked down
yn: im 6 weeks
julian: what the fuck
he stood up and started pacing around the room
julian: what the fuck
he said a bit louder i flinched
yn: ju-
julian: i cant right now, get out
yn: wh-
julian: GET OUT!
he was mad at this point and i got up and walked to the door and looked back at him
julian: GO!
he started throwing things and i walked straight to the door and got in my car and left imminently, i got home and crawled into bed and cried my eyes out i was sobbing at this point. i was so heartbroken that julian reacted like that. my phone started blowing up with messages from julian
-text messages-
luv<3: yn i cant
luv<3: im sorry but im too young to be a dad,i cant be a dad now! i need time by myself, until im ready i dont want to see you anymore. im breaking up w you. i love you
luv<3: im doing this for you, not me. if u choose to keep the baby i will find my way back. i wish you well
i looked at the messages and my heart instantly sank and i started sobbing even more.
~couple weeks later~
i havent heard from julian but i got over it. it still hurts but i couldnt stay like that.i was in the bathroom brushing my teeth when i felt a sharp pain in my stomach and i felt something come down my legs. i looked down and saw blood. i screamed and started crying. the girls ran into the room and rushed me to the hospital. i got there and the doctor gave me the news that i have miscarried the baby. 
*end of flashback*