DARKEN MEMORIES

CONFUSED

How can the night be so quiet where did all the noise go?
I looked out my window and all I could see was a cold sadden night, as the wind blows its hues across the land, I look at the moon hiding in and out from the darkened clouds, the shine that it gave was dim like it was covered in sin. I started thinking about you. I lost control when words of hurt were making its way back in my heart piece by piece of me is missing when you left me, the mood of true sadness came over me, but I didn't truly understand why I was acting as I do, Because I never Loved you.

Where sounds in the night seem so distant, where thoughts were eating away at my spirit, and I could feel you were loving every moment of all my agony, I just couldn't prove it at the time, I felt you have me under an evil spell, where ever you are, so is my poor broken heart. You've left no trace, what a disgrace when I have to see your face, I never wanted you in my life in the first place, I didn't ask for all of this, my heart is shattered and I know I'm over my head in a very big mess.

In my nights I'm always crying because of the memories of you, haunting me even in my sleep, sometimes I see you in the nights watching from a distance, it truly scares me when I can feel you near me, there have been many times I felt you near me even though I couldn't see you but I felt you, I could hear you calling out to me, you are giving me bad dreams. and when I awake I feel I am coming out of a grave, I'm screaming all over the place, praying for more faith.

This pain you have given to me is cutting me very deep, in my heart, you left deep mares like art, what I see in front of me is a place of darkness, loneliness, emptiness, loss of time, like I had been hypnotized. I get afraid to fall asleep because when I do I see you, but I must be confused, Love was never with you.

-Judy Emery © 1997 The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery