teenage dream - lashton

Chapter 15

i literally have to censor everything just to post this uhh enjoy. LEAVE FEEDBACK PLEASE

*Luke's POV*

The past few days haven't actually been too bad. I've been getting head from one of the girls here. Really good head, might I add.

I've decided to push my feelings towards Ashton to the side, because he likes Calum anyways. I don't see any reason why I should try and win him back, he means nothing to me. He's just some really handsome boy with curly hair and a fabulous smile, who I'll never see or speak to ever again after this. Its useless, really.

I wake up, once again alone because Ashton's too stubborn the even sleep in the damn cabin with me. I stand, getting dressed in my usual before making my way to the cafeteria, where I see, of course, Calum and Ashton being all lovey dovey with each other - disgusting, why are they even allowed to do that?

To be a d*ck, I sit at the table that's next to theirs, which is fairly close, probably closer than I'd be than sitting across from them (and maybe that was an exaggeration).

I turn to them, a smirk on my face as it always was. It's like it's glued there.

"So, how's the head, Calum?" I ask.

"Luke, go away." Ashton says politely, although I can see right through him - he wants to rip my f*cking head off.

"No I'm sitting in my usual spot, trying to make small talk with the people next to me. Is that such a crime?"

"It is when you're asking how my blowjobs are! Especially when you already know!" Ashton snaps back quietly, and I can tell he's obviously ashamed by the tone of his voice.

"Oh yeah. That's right. I do know - and I'll have you know, your blow jobs are f*cking terrible, your teeth scraped against my c*ck one too many times for it to be even the slightest bit enjoyable." I say. And, it was a lie. I loved his blow jobs, his pretty lips wrapped around my d*ck. And as for the teeth thing - uh, its possible for pain to be a kink, right?

Ashton gasps, throwing up his middle finger at me before turning back to his food. Little over dramatic, drama queen. I'm glad Calum ruined this for me.

Except, that's not true. Not in the slightest. I feel something in the pit of my stomach when I see Ashton with Calum, I think it's jealousy. But I'm not going to let that get to me, after all, he's just a boy I met at the summer camp I don't want to be at.

Except, he's not. I think he's more. Maybe it's possible to fall in love with somebody in the time span of a few weeks. But I didn't think it was possible for me to love somebody. It's only possible for me to fuck somebody.

I'm not in love, I'm in lust.

Yeah, that's it.

　

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Today we have a little break from all the stupid activities that I never enjoyed doing. It's a free day, so I decide to go sit out by the pond and think about everything. It's not a lot, but it's overwhelming. Apparently it doesn't take too much to overwhelm me.

I start to think about Ashton again. Maybe it's not just lust. I've been in lust too many times, I know what it feels like and it's not this. This is something more, something way more. Something more intense and way too overwhelming for me.

Why am I like this? Why do I like him? The stupid boy with the stupid curly hair and the stupiid dimples? The stupid boy that's with somebody else because I'm letting him be! Because of a stupid lie!