Peeking through the bars
Of this lonely cage
That I try to break
Everyday.
But, alas
Here I am
Still Banned.
I try to think of things to do
But this cage blocks all the tools that I use
To show my world
The colors from my thoughts and heart.
All there is-
Are darkness and blanks,
On this lacking page.
But was it not I that trapped myself
In this soulless cage
To protect me from Reality,
From the cruel world?
To trap me in this cage, to avoid thoughts
To avoid pointlessly painful emotions
For if I do not have emotions, then I do not have to hide
Hide from the pain that used to claw at me
Even thinking about it causes a terminal storm inside of my ribcage
To that useless organ
Just laying there like a lump of coal.
I appear a robot
To those who visit me,
To those who try to save me
I am too stubborn for my own good
Bang, Bang, Bang
The sounds echo in the darkness
The sounds of that useless lump of coal
Ah, yes
I remember
I trapped you too, did I not?
To protect me
But I am starting to realize,
Maybe the pain was better
Than feeling nothing.
