Love from Ashton [Ashton Irwin Fan-fiction]

11.

Dear Mia,

I wish that I could wake up with amnesia and forget about when they told me you were gone.

I didn't believe the boys when they told me. I thought maybe Michael was making a joke. A sick joke, but a joke none the less.

But then your mother phoned, Mia.
She called me on my mobile just before we were supposed to go back on Mia.

I couldn't go back on Mia. Not without you breathing.

The boys had to say I was sick Mia. I couldn't stand up without one of them holding me. I didn't feel anything a couple days after you left.

But then I did. Suddenly and all at once I felt it. It hit me so hard that you weren't coming back that I couldn't breathe. I couldn't breathe Mia and I thought that maybe I'd be joining you. But then the boys found me.

I cried then. God Mia, I cried so much.

And I haven't really stopped crying since.

Love from

Ashton