Authors note : sorry guys I've been really busy but.. I really can't sleep right now so I might as well write for my lovies. I have no idea what to write so don't judge. K hope you like it anyways.
Ashley's POV
I was going to tell Andy today. I had to I don't have much time to tell him so I'm taking him out tonight and I'm going to tell him at the place we first kissed.
Andy looked so happy I knew this would kill him. It was killing me I had no idea how to tell a secret this big but I had to.
I looked right into Andy's eyes and said " Andy remember when we said that we would love each other no matter what forever right? " he looked at me with a very worried look " Yes. Ash what's wrong your scarring me "
"Andy I really don't want you to freak out. Just promise you wont freak out." I said carefully. " OK I won't freak out just tell me what's going on."
"Andy I have something I have been keeping from you for a little while. I only kept it a secret because I didn't want to hurt you but I have to tell you I don't have much time to tell you so here go's... Andy I have cancer and I don't have long. The doctor's said 7 months. Andy I'm so sorry."
Andy just looked at me with a stunned look on his face and then It hit him all at once. "No. No. No Ashley Purdy you can't leave me. I won't let you. Please why you? Why can't it be me? Your more important than me...." He said in a rush before he started to cry.
"Andy you can't think like that. Stop shhh. Its OK I'm here. " it seemed like forever but eventually he calmed down enough for us to get in the car and leave.
When we got home Andy ran into the bathroom and slammed the door... I didn't think anything of it. But he was in there for five minutes before I heard Andy scream " its not fair. If your going I'm going with you."
I ran over to the bathroom door " Andy what the hell are you doing let me in. Unlock this door right now." I said " No Ashley. I am going away before you can leave me ... don't bother calling 911 they can't help."
Then I understood what he was saying ... I broke down the door and saw Andy shirtless with cuts going up his arms where his veins are. " Andy what the hell are you doing." I wasn't thinking I grabbed him and slammed him up against the wall screaming in his face while I called 911. " Are you trying to kill me sooner Andy because that is what your doing you are making my life a living hell right now ... I love you and you promised not to hurt me but now you are hurting me." I threw Andy on the floor and ran the open the door for the doctors.
They ran and got Andy and stopped the bleeding and got him in the ambulance. They said he will be OK but ... will we be OK I mean I am a monster. Will he want me back. I threw him on the floor while he was dying ... while he needed me. I don't know what to do. So I went to the bar and got something to drink. Then went back to the hospital to see Andy.
He was sleeping when I got in his room so I decided to talk to him while he was sleeping. "Andy I am so sorry. I don't know what happened. I was just really mad. I love you. I really do you might not think so but I do ... what the fuck am I talking about you probably think I'm a monster. "
"Your not a monster Ash." Andy said weakly.
Authors note : alrighty then I have no idea where that came from dont worry this will all work itself out. .. maybe ha ha ha ... I'm evil sorry I would have in this chapter but I should try and get some sleep tonight... night lovies :)
