Behind Closed Doors

Chapter 1: Lu

Growing up I had a decent childhood up until the point of me moving in with my so called " father", someone I'll refer to as Lewis or Lu, as his homeboys would call him. This man was a stranger to me if he was anything at all. I moved from a small town to the city, something that I wasn't quite used to. My mother completely out the picture, my grandma just passed, so now I'm left with a stranger and his family. He had a daughter, she was mixed due to her mother's genes. The first few months were pretty normal I would say I felt like I was loved and apart of their family. I was 12 going on 13, around this time I would be going through puberty. This is when I started to notice how strange Lu would begin to act. He would get onto me about the weirdest things.

"It's sad how we barely see you. You're always in the room with your door shut," he would say to me.

As a teenager it was pretty normal to be secluded in my room. I mean I liked being in my own space and company, although I didn't see a problem he just wasn't having it. He would get so mad sometimes he would bust in my room without knocking and threaten to remove my door. When I asked what his excuses were for this it was, "You're my daughter I can see any part of you when I want, I made you." That was very weird to me. After that incident he would just make remarks that no father should ever feel comfortable to say to their child. After a year or so he split up with his baby mama , me not knowing her like that I was forced to go with him. He wouldn't let me stay with her anyway.
We ended up moving with a lady that he considered as his sister, not blood though. She stayed in the same area his baby mama did so it wasn't hard to move. Her name was Nikkie, she had two boys and housed about two more adults, not including Lu. It was only a two bedroom. She was nice enough to to let us use a room, I shared it with Lu. The room belonged to her kids so we each got our own bed, one across from the other. The first few nights were good. Most of the time when I went to lay down Lu wasn't there, but he was always there when I woke up the next morning.
Even though Lu and his baby mama weren't together each still had a part in the babys life. She was considered my half sister of course since we had the same dad. Maliyah was just 4 years old at this time, we were about 10 years apart, I was now 14 going on 15. Maliyah ended up spending the day with us at Nikkie's house that day. We were close by now at this time, I had been in her life for a couple of years. It was getting late that day and her mama still hadn't came so I assumed she was staying the night with us, which ended up happening. That night I went to bed Maliyah was still up playing with the other kids.
I woke up around dawn to the sun slightly peeking through the blinds from the window coming from my right. Lu's bed was against the window, I was on the other side by the door. As I faced the wall I could see the shadows of the sun and blinds in front of me, I started to hear an unusual noice. It continued, it sound like something wet and squishy. I slowly turned my back, my eyes moving towards Lu's bed to my right, a moan escaped his lips. I instantly felt sick to my stomach, I don't want to believe what I think is happening right now, but it actually is. I noticed Maliyah was in bed with him. She was laying halfway on the bed and on him against the wall. As my eyes slowly moved down I see Lu's hand going in a stroking motion against his private area. I had never seen a penis before. I'm only 14. Immediately a wave of fear and anxiety went through my body as I realized what was actually happening before my eyes.
I just can't lay here, I thought, I have to make myself known, he'll stop then.
I slowly reached over to my right to grab my phone on the table. I immediately touched the screen so it would light up on my side of the room . The blinds were only open slightly so it was still kind of dark in the room.
What do I do, this man is sick he has my little sister in bed with him.
So many thoughts are rushing through my head at this point. I lay there for a few more seconds debating on what to do. I've made my mind up to just get up and leave the room. I refuse to lay here and listen to this. I hopped out of bed as quick as possible avoiding eye contact with him and left the room. As I walked down the hall to the living room I noticed that there was nobody there . I made my was to the couch and sat on the end towards the wall. I had never felt so uncomfortable in my life. I didn't feel safe. I felt guilty for leaving my baby sister in there with a monster. I could not face him, I was scared to even look at him at this point. I'm still feeling sick to my stomach, the feeling worsens, I feel so many emotions right now. After about 10 minutes Nikkie was coming through the door with her kids. I urgently pulled her into the back to her room and shut the door. We had a quick talk, I confided in her and discussed what to do. I heard Lu open the door from the other side of Nikkies since her room was right across from that one. I heard a few footsteps and then the front door open and shut. I went to go check on my sister, who was still asleep in bed. Tears rushed down my face, I couldn't help but to cry. Even though I talked to Nikkie about it I still felt completely alone in this. I wiped my eyes, as I heard the front door open and shut once again. You know that feeling when your heart drops to your knees, that's exactly what happened. Lu came around the corner.

"Hey I'm going to the mall, wanna come ? I'll get you some shoes." Lu spoke to me in a charming way with a devilish look in his eyes.

"I'm straight," I said very dryly and uninterested. That's a very odd question to ask as if he was trynna bribe me. He was sitting here acting like he was completely unaware of his actions.

"Okay I'll see y'all later," he said referring to me and Maliyah as he walked and exited the door.

I burst into tears again, I just couldn't believe he had gone that far. A few moments later Nia came through the door. Nia was Nikkie's niece, we had became close over the years. She wasn't from Fayette either, like me she had me up here from her hometown.

"Girl what's wrong," Nia asked me with a concerned look on her face.

"You not even gone believe that I just woke up to Lu playing with himself with Maliyah in the bed. He knew I was up because I made sure to move around a grab my phone. I dont know what to do I told Nikkie, but she ain't say nun to him!," I exclaimed in frustration.

"I think you should call Kristie and tell her." she suggested.

Kristie was Maliyah's mother. I dialed up her number nervously, thinking that Lu could come back at any minute and hear me. I told her the same thing I told Nia, hardly getting my words out because I was crying so much. She told me she would be there to get Maliyah soon. Still I felt alone. He was NOT gonna let me go with Kristie so I knew I would be staying another night with this man alone. The rest of that day dragged so long with the thought of what happened floating in the back of my head. As the day light slowly faded away outside, my heart was filling with fear on the inside. I felt like I had no voice at all. I told my problems to people I thought would be concerned, just for them to go unheard. I felt all I had was myself. That's something you learn in life. Soon it was time to go to bed and this time Lu was home . I knew he would be going to bed sooner or later. I headed back to the room, Lu was in the living room with the grown folks still. I lay in bed trying my hardest not to fall asleep just yet, shortly I dozed off. That morning I woke up to the room bright and vibrant. I looked across from me to find that the bed was empty this time. As I began to move around in the bed I feel something against my back. I can't believe my eyes this nigga is behind me with his arm wrapped around me, a creepy ass smile on his face.

"Umm.. what are you doing?" I question him in complete disgust and confusion, "Get off me, what's wrong with you." At this point I'm real heated.

"I was just admiring my little girl, what's wrong with that ?," He sickly replied to me. The look is his beady black eyes disgusted me, they were so tiny.

I immediately jumped up and headed to another room to call Kristie. I didn't care what he had to say I was leaving. I needed to get away from him. It didn't take long before she pulled up, I didn't say anything to him as I was leaving.