Behind Closed Doors

Chapter 4: Pain

My senior year was soon approaching, despite the things going on at home I stayed on top of my work. I wouldn't let my life at home affect me and my grades. At school I frequently visited counselors to talk briefly about my problems.
Unfortunately Lu's little get away didn't last long after two months he had made his way back up here and back into our house. I guess Kristie forgave him, I was starting to hate her too. She seen it with her own eyes and still played blind to his devilish ways, as if she was in this too. My counselors name was Lindsey, I wasnt the type to have the school in my business but she was cool people. She always listened and asked questions last. I would tell her about my different stages of depression I would go through and she would help me come up with an activity or idea to cope with how I felt. I liked drawing but the things in my head I didn't want to put on paper. I had became the counselors aide for third period so when I needed to talk to her she was always available. Lindsey made what I was going through a lot easier at times. I mean she was the ONLY person that would listen to me . I wanted to tell her about Lu so bad but I didnt know how to. I couldn't just flat out say, "My dad loves showing his dick to me and my little sister, I've kept that a secret from everyone." I figured that was a job too big for a counselor anyway, she would probably just hand it over to the authorities or DHS. I needed to tell someone but not them.
I looked forward to school everyday, I didn't have to see his face . I longed for the school day to go by slow. I knew once the bell rang and I was going to be back on the bus to my hell house. The only way I could find any positivity was to think that after each day I was one step closer to leaving that place. I didn't have a game plan on how I just knew whatever it took I was gonna get away. Everyday after school I was greeted by him. It's crazy how he could act so normal towards me and then turn around and act like he couldn't control hisself . I would always ignore him and everyday it was a problem. He had to say something to me no matter what, I could be doing nothing and he would make me do something just so he could watch me do it. I was so tired of him, mentally I was going insane. The incidents would still occur, he just flat out didn't give a fuck anymore. He seen that he could get away with what he did and he took advantage of the situation. Why couldn't I be bold enough to say something? I still couldn't stand to look at him.
The days went by and I started to notice that him and Kristie were building up tension towards each other. I didn't know why, but soon I would. When I found out I couldn't believe him once again. I was told that he had been texting this girl named Chasity. Chasity was an old friend of mine I had met when I first moved up here with them. She was a couple years older than me so Lu told me I couldn't be around her like that. Yes she was older but not grown. This girl was seventeen at the time. Kristie later went on to tell me that they had been meeting up with each other. Now what business does a thirty year old even have conversing with a seventeen year old child ? He was old enough to be her daddy. Lu had been meeting up with her for sex and whatever else. I couldn't believe it, now this man was fucking on my friends, I was so sick. How could Chasity even do that? The whole thing was fucked up, he just had no limits I guess. I mean he did start with his own kids. What kind of world was I in where this was normal? I really made sure never to bring anyone around again. He ruined my childhood and my perspective towards what a dad was really supposed to be. I felt like sick shit like this didn't happen in real life, only on TV. I guess not though. I needed a break from this, but I had no where to go. I needed to come up with something to do quick.
I had an old boy of mine I would go see. We met in highschool, he graduated two years before me but we still kept in touch. We were close friends, but we never dated. I wanted to be closer to him but Lu never let me. He lived a few blocks down the street from me. I started thinking that he was my only way out from this situation. One morning I texted and let him know I needed to see him. He had a car, I would of walked but he insisted on coming to get me. I had to find a way to sneak out since Lu was home, before I could do anything someone was banging on my door. It was him.