Song Recommendation: 3am By: Finding Hope
*November*
Jungkook POV:
Being the youngest one here, you would think I am the stupidest, but the crap I see my friends do really blows my mind. They are all so clueless about the things happening in their lives, especially when it comes to the people they like. Now, I am not the one to talk about love and relationships because I have the biggest crush on Jimin and cannot speak properly around him, however, I am smart enough to know that he does feel the same way. Jimin has no clue that I do like him. I have asked Namjoon and he says that Jimin is so clueless that he doesn't even know that he likes me. Namjoon though is just as clueless when it comes to the boy across the hall who would probably risk his life for him. Jin for sure has the fattest crush on Namjoon and I think somewhere behind Namjoon's icy heart, he feels the same way. Namjoon just gets himself into stupid situations, for example, Taehyung. He should have stopped hooking up with Taehyung ages ago. I mean I get it, Tae is hot, Tae has a big dick, whatever, but they are best friends. Friends with benefits is already a really slippery slope, just imagine best friends.
Seeing the way Taehyung is glued to Namjoon's ass really puts things into perspective for me. I never want to be that far up someone's ass who clearly does not feel the same way. At first, I thought they were dating but no, Taehyung has their entire life planned out while Namjoon is worried about what he should have for breakfast. I feel bad though, liking someone and not having it be returned is a really shitty place to be in. That is why when Taehyung is not talking to Namjoon, after hooking up the other night, I completely understand and I'm not rushing him to make amends with Joon anytime soon.
If Taeyhung thinks he needs space, then he will get his space, and I will make sure of that. So for the past week, every time Namjoon came to our door, I would either make up some stupid excuse or let him know straight up that Taehyung does not want to see his face.
Taehyung and I have been hanging out a lot since he isn't with Joon anymore. I am so glad that he got over the hatred he had towards me. Or maybe he didn't, and he is just using me for his own benefits right now. But it seems as though we are slowly becoming really good friends. Obviously not on the same level as him and Namjoon but I do not expect that at all. At first Taehyung would not even say hello. It made me feel bad, I thought I was doing something wrong. Jimin comforted me and told me that Taehyung is just upset that he is not rooming with Namjoon, so he is taking everything out on me. I guess that is fair, or at least I will let it be fair and not make a big deal out of it.
Jimin stops by once in a while but never long enough to actually say that we have hung out. He is only checking up on Tae, being sent by Namjoon of course. Tae says he's fine but I swear I have caught him crying so many times while looking at the pictures of him and Namjoon on his wall, in just one day. Jimin says that Namjoon has been trying to keep himself busy. He already is always busy but knowing that there is an issue with Taehyung is forcing him to not be able to get anything done.
Jimin also stopped by a few days ago to make plans with me for this weekend. He is hoping that Namjoon and Taehyung will come along, however, he knows that that is highly unlikely. It has only been a little over a week since they broke off whatever the hell they were, and I know for a fact that Taehyung is not ready to see Namjoon.
That is why when I am heading to the bar to meet Jimin with a very sulky Taehyung on Saturday I am really confused about why he did not just stay at home and cry it out. Drinking his problems away will not help the situation, drinking his problems away at the same bar as Namjoon will definitely not help the situation.
We walked in together, the energy is wild, people are really having a good time however, my energy is awkward because when Namjoon saw Tae he smiled but Taehyung did not even make eye contact and I can already see how this night will play out.
