The Billionaire's Triplet Surprise

Like Hell You Are!

"Wow, this is a very beautiful home Mands. Jay outdid himself," Emily says while moving around the living room and kitchen. I love the fact that it is an open space, there aren't many walls in this house and that's what makes it more comfortable and homey. It reminds me of my father's house honestly. I miss him, I should call him so he can come and meet his grandchildren.

"Soo,Mands,why is Zende here anyway? Have you decided to forgive him for how he treated you before and allow him to know his children or what?" I still can't wrap my head around the fact that I kissed him just before Emily came in.
I didn't even get to say anything to Zende, to tell him it was a mistake or something. Immediately when Emily came, I used her as an excuse not to talk about the kiss because at the moment I didn't even know what to say to him. I really should concentrate on my conversation with Emily before she starts asking questions I don't have answers too.
"What was that again Em? I keep getting lost in looking at this beautiful house, I still can not believe this is my house and I will be living here for the rest of my life?"

"I don't blame you really, this is a really amazing house, you should make a house warming party you know, just so you can celebrate your new house with your friends here, and do not forget to give Jamey a call, and thank him for what he did, I had my doubts at first but this is honestly beautiful, he should really get into interior designing,"
" the question Em, you still haven't repeated the question you asked, "I am laughing at her now, she gets easily distracted.
" Ohhh yeah, the question, ummm what was it again.. Ummmm, oh yeah, are you going to allow Zende to be part of the triplets lives or what?"

" I really don't know about that now, he seems like he really wants to be involved you know, but I don't think I can trust him again given our past, he insulted me so much the last time we were together and I don't see myself exposing my children to someone who can say such hurtful stuff to other people, it's just wrong to have so much hate you know. "
I suddenly feel the urge to go check on the triplets only to see  Zende lying on his back  on the mat with Phoebe sleeping on his chest and the boys sleeping on each side of him. It's a beautiful sight but I can't in fact, I won't let myself depend on him or start wishing to see that view everyday.
Emily and I move back to the kitchen and continue our conversation there.
"Well you should rethink that, because he doesn't seem like he is going anywhere anytime soon hun, and babe, this is about the children, what is best for the children, not what is best for you, they deserve to have their father in their life."Emily says as a matter of fact. I know she is right to a point.
" Emily, I don't want to talk about this right now, the children aren't even old enough to know the difference truthfully, I will cross that bridge when I get there, and I mean when the kids are old enough to ask about their dad, I will tell them all about him when I feel the time is right. He isn't going to stay for the long run obviously,"

" Mandy, you got it all wrong, I'm here and I'm not going anywhere, you better start believing this, I will always be here for my children," Zende says.
I turn around and I see him standing there holding Phoebe and Dylan.

" I think these two are hungry, I'm sorry to have eavesdropped on your conversation. But I'm here Mandy, for you and the children. I'm not going anywhere, I'm sorry to dissapoint you."

"And that's my que to go," Emily says as walks towards Zende and kisses both Phoebe and Dylan's foreheads. "I will see you guys tomorrow and give Jayden a kiss for me would you? " and then she walks out of the house leaving me with Zende.

"So about the kiss earlier on..." I'm not ready to talk about that. I don't even know why he brought that subject up.
"Zende, I don't really want to talk about that, it was a mistake, I was really happy about the house and I do not know what came over me. The one and  only reason that you are still standing in my house right now and connecting us right now is that we have kids together. We should be focusing on that only, "I hope this will be the last time we talk about the kiss.

I see he wants to say something, I'm glad when he decides not to say anything else.

" Umm, well Jayden is sleeping and these two are wide awake and I thought they might be hungry,"he walk over to me and hands Phoebe to me.
I have not really seen the entire house, so I might as well go to the bedrooms. Hopefully the bedrooms downstairs have everything the triplets need.
I walk into the first bedroom and I see it's a guest bedroom.
It doesn't have a lot inside, just a queen sized bed a double door which is a closet and another door which through that door would be a bathroom.
I move to the next room and I see three beautiful cribs and a rocking chair by the wall.

From te first glance I could see this isn't my children's room. I should really call Jay and thank him for this. I'm sure he knew I couldn't go up and down the stairs just yet and he brought the cribs down stairs until I'm well enough to sleep upstairs.

"Can I stay the night? I mean just to help you with the kids and with stuff around the house. You know you can not handle things on your own at the moment, you just had an operation and I know you aren't feeling much pain because of the pain relief medication you got from. The doctor but you don't want to overdo stuff"

He looks at me really hopeful and if he had demanded he stayed it would have been easier to say no. But then he asked and made some really valid points. I do need to rest and I can not handle the kids in my own right now.

"where do you plan to sleep?" I ask.
"There are other bedrooms in this house Mandy, if you don't want me using the bedrooms I can sleep on the couch in the living room or soft mat I left Jayden sleeping on. And don't worry I put a blanky on the mat before I laid him there okay."

"Fine, but don't you dare step in the master bedroom that's my room and I would like to be the first one to sleep in the bed and the first one to see exactly how it looks if you don't mind.
Well can I get some privacy right now while breastfeeding Phoebe and Dylan, get Jayden and come put him on his crib I bet it's softer and more comfortable than where you left him sleeping,"He nods and walk out.
I was expecting an argument or something. I guess he is trying his best not to give me a reason to throw him out.
What am I going to do, I don't want to be a toxic parent. I do want my kids to experience love from both parents but I am so mad at Zende.
I have to calm down because I know kids can sense energy.
Apparently negative energy can make them sick and I don't want that to happen to them.

When he finally arrives with Jayden I ask him to put him down in his crib and leave since I was feeding both Phoebe and Dylan on each of my breasts. I really need to by a pump.
I'm able to feed them both but what if all three are hungry then what
I'm just lucky I produce a lot of milk or I would have been trouble.

My doctor advised me to drink plenty of liquids so I can make more milk for the trips.

I see Zende is hesitant with leaving but I stand my ground.
He then says he will wait outside the room so I can finish breastfeeding them.
I look down at my babies and they are suckling away with no care in the world.
I never knew it's possible to love someone so much.